My Midnight Thoughts: Things I Have In Mind, People Don't Know

dark falls like dark humor

In phase like this
Just tectonic plates
Diverges, submerges
Numerous earthquakes
These are in line for awaking
People with their deeds
Led by fate - life or death
Is there a savior to save me
From these darkness I feel?

Life that I was clinging
Various things, yearning
Such a lot of silver linings
I ought on to cradling

Did you see how the sunset
Turned into a dark evening?
When dark falls, it scares me
Like dark humors, you wear
In my depressing state
I heard you laughing
Nudging my shoulders
It's just my delusion, you're saying
I'd like to go on therapy
I can't, 'cause that's too expensive
So, I took myself, self-soothing
Just to make my self better
Yet, people are crossing boundaries
They laughed at your past experience
Like it was funny as how you experience it
Can't you imagine how awful it is,
To be ridiculed by someone who's healing
From the past, they attempts to lose it

I'm afraid that in times like this
If my darkness falls like dark humor
I believe that this would be the end of me
In my odyssey, the mantras I mourned
Would only just a laughter to somebody
Who knows me, and my whole deeds