My Midnight Thoughts: Things I Have In Mind, People Don't Know

Just Friends?

Just friends?

I don't know if I'm too close to the havens of intimacy
When I think about it, it's weighing me down with my feelings
All these signal lights are confusing me
Whether it's red, yellow, or green
I wonder if we both resonate feelings

Each night, I fueled millions of fantasies
Spending my nights with you in my wildest dreams
I yearned that these narratives I crafted
Would happen in the realms of reality
Where both of us would sit on the rooftop, gazing -
The moon and the stars, that reflects our eyes starring
While sharing each other's company, just like we always did
But this time, I hope we'd reciprocate what we feel with each other

I don't know what's going on with my system
It's strange to feel affection for the ones I called, "weird"
Now I can't help my heart escape the deliquescent
Dwindling from the admiration of your charismatic senses
I like how you stood up by my side, relentlessly
Through thick and thin, you never fail to feel me
How you understood me and my broken pieces
I wished I could utter things I wanted to say
That's been going on since I was tossing and turning in my bed
Yet, it may wreck everything we had, including our friendship
And I don't want to do it again, just like I did in the previous 6 years.

I've been delusional about the good things you did to me
The army of ants just got its way here the way you're so sweet to me
I just can't help but fantasize, the way I visualize it
If only you could see the signs I tried to convey
If you would just open your heart and grant my wishes
You could take me to the moon, or in different galaxies
'cause clearly, I don't want us to be just friends
If the society won't judge us, we could love each other
So answer me, can we be more than just friends?