My Midnight Thoughts: Things I Have In Mind, People Don't Know

entropy

I saw my reflections
Having midnight thoughts
Are there anything that people don't know?
Does my vindication prove him wrong?
About the perception of life, I never knew along
Things I have in mind scattered into being engulfed by the black hole
Would the stars I created in my universe make explosion like supernovas do?

As the decade would meet at the end
Would the galaxy still maintain its forces?
Would the gravity I felt makes life dependent?
As to you, the havoc I made was countless
Nevertheless, you act like you never saw it coming
My undying support to celestial bodies
Remain as is, to the fantasies I created

Could she have been believing in me?
To what ends our relationship reeling
How complicated it was to know particles became planets
Just how immense was it to realize, I lived in high entropy
Trying to hold my flowing thoughts, in desertion of harmony

Just as how messy the existence would be
Living in denial to adore things like cosmic myth
My feelings are somewhat in a state of entropy
Can't tell if its elevating or depressing
Is this what they called loneliness?