A prose -
I am certain about the occurrence lately. I was wondering about how you usually became jaded after locking yourself in your room. I am worried about the shape that you were going through lately. Nevertheless, I assume that you're in good shape after you uttered being fine as you suit yourself sitting.
I asked voluntarily, "Can you state all of the things that happened in your days?". You replied, "There are a lot of information to process and spill". Unbeknownst to me, I asked, "Like what?". Objectively seeking for concrete answers as you retorted, "It's a long story, but I'll make it short". It's a narrative that I wanted to hear, and it's called, "The Illicit Sceneries."
"Back when we were in the 2019, my family, relatives, and I went somewhere for a trip to the lake for a grand reunion. I've met a lot of unfamiliar people there. As well as those whom I already know about. Much of being reunited, my father forced me to make friends with my relatives. I disobeyed his order and went to my cousin who was in my mother side to sleep on his tent since he was alone. And he insisted. Thank goodness, I succeeded with a plan to escape with those loathsome relatives.
We were doing our business. He's introvert and we're the same. The exact reason why I needed to flee from socializing here in this fucking reunion. He asked me, 'Don't you want to be there?'. I replied, 'It sucks to go there, I might kill someone'. He chuckled as he got the same idea as mine. 'This reunion is killing me, I'd rather locked up myself than to meet a bunch of jerks outside', he stated. I second the motion with his views. Trying to make friends with my relatives is definitely not going to fly.
I guess we are going to be suffocated for a while. I thanked him for the opportunity to stay with him in the tent. It's getting late, and I think I need to sleep to make this horrible reunion begone at last. My thoughts were to sleep on the floor. However, he requested to sleep beside him on a prepared mattress he was lying lately. I tried not to impose, but he insisted. And so I went there lying with him while staring above the tent's interior.
He's not aware about my gender identity. Or was he? I tried to conceal my identity all these years. I'm afraid of losing people so as losing my entire entity. He's the only cousin that I can look forward to anything. It might be the end of the road for us if he knows I'm different.
Unbeknownst to me that night, while I was near him, he wrapped his legs onto my body, cuddling me. I can feel the bulging thing from his genital, erecting. As much as I wanted to escape it, it held me so tight that I'm immobilized by his bulky muscle. I can assure you, he's muscular and imposing, with a formidable presence.
I tried to move and get to the other side. But my motions gave him a chance to wake up as he witnessed himself locking me with his right leg. He didn't remove it as how I saw how a lot of people like in the movies react to this act. He stood in stationary, continued his opportunity and will to make a move through. In my thoughts, "I'm not ready, I'm not ready". But my heart wanting this intimacy for so long, I yearned from the other boys I loved before.
'Are we going to do it', you whispered into my ears in a seducing way, initiating an illicit scenery in a promising ecstasy and liberation. You thrust your love into my broken gaps to fill up my loneliness I felt throughout the entirety of my being. Something that is memorable to reminisce. Even though, I know you're straight and the act that we did was forbidden. I'm completely a wreck after that long making of rolling-in-the-hay, but you handle it more gently by taking good care for me. Something that I am grateful to have a memory for...
and that concludes the story of our illicit sceneries."
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My Midnight Thoughts: Things I Have In Mind, People Don't Know
PuisiDecember 15, 2022. My Midnight Thoughts: Things I have in Mind, People Don't Know. My 10th Poetry Collection tells you about everything I know in the middle of the night. As you start this page, you will witness everything I have in mind for years.