With a loudly beating heart, Wangji stayed frozen above Zhan who looked at him with a confused look. Zhan heart almost left his body on feeling Wangji’s hot shaky breathe on his lips and he got so lost on Wangji’s gaze as if…as if….as if what?
He couldn’t come up with words on what he was currently feeling. Oh yes, it’s as if it was Yibo. His Yibo. But that’s not possible right? His Yibo is gone or probably missing and the person before him right now is none other than his employee with whom he hasn’t worked with for more than two weeks. As if coming to a realisation on how close they were and what their current position is, Zhan jerked up and also mistakenly hitting his head on Wangji's to which they both groaned in pain but Zhan ignored it completely. Instead, he looked at Wangji wide eyed and waiting for a possible explanation to what just happened.
‘Did Wangji just tried kissing him?’ He thought.
He could see how nervousness took over Wangji’s being but still waited for him to explain the obvious act he just carried out.
Wangji was nervous. Very nervous and afraid. His head hurting from the hit but what was currently happening right now was much more important than his pain. He has to justify himself and try explaining his act if he still wants to be close to Zhan. If he doesn’t want to loose him even before pursuing him and that thought scares him deeply.
what would Zhan think of him now? He really didn’t mean to do what he just did but he couldn’t help himself. He was so lost on Zhan’s beauty that he wasn’t able to control himself and that made him angry at himself as he had always been someone in control of his body. He’d never losses control. No matter who it was but how come with Zhan, it’s completely different. He knows he likes him and he actually had some people he liked in the past but it was as if Zhan is different. He doesn’t just have a crush on him nor does he just like him. Like is a word he wouldn’t use in describing what he feels for Zhan cuz he can feel it within himself and now he was sure that he had fallen for him. He really really really loves him and wouldn’t do what would make him angry so Zhan would not back away from him. He hasn’t even won his heart yet and that breaks him inside.
Well, as they say, to achieve something, you have to take it one step at a time and that’s exactly what he’s going to do. So his first step right now is to clear this what would he say….misunderstanding? And then he would let the future decides its faith. Taking in steady breaths as if encouraging himself, he spoke.
“ummm i-i'm s-sorry…..for….”despite the confidence, he still couldn’t voice out what he wanted to as he was scared as to what Zhan’s reaction would be. He wouldn’t have to wait for anyone to say to him that Zhan’s currently mad at him as his expression says it all. He gulped and lowered his head in apology.
“Sorry.” He says without raising his head and he could hear Zhan sighing harshly but still spoke in a cold and hesitant tone.
“Don’t do that again.”
“o-okay.”
“I’m sorry.” Wangji added.
“Mmm forget it. Let’s just head back to the company. I’ve got a lot to do.” Zhan says getting up from his sitting position. Turning to look at Wangji who was still seated as if he got badly hurt, he sighed again and let out his hand to Wangji.
“come on. Stop sulking like a kid who’s candy got stolen.” Zhan says and Wangji couldn’t help the thought that came to him.
‘My candy was definitely stolen. No… I got deprived of it.’
Raising his head at Zhan who still had his hand stretched out at him, he forces out a smile and places his hand on Zhan’s and got up with Zhan’s help. Luckily, Zhan’s hold was firm as he was sure he would have fallen back to the wooden path with how jelly his legs were from the situation.
Zhan smiled at him again and started walking towards the car.
Wangji knew better that that was a fake smile. He could see how hurt Zhan was and he blamed himself for it. If he hadn’t been so carried away, this wouldn’t have happened. That, he was sure. Taking in a shaky breathe, he walks behind Zhan and towards the driver seat.
