Say you Love me

(25)ANAXIPHILIA

*The act of falling in love with the wrong person*

KENNA'S POV

"No" I blurt and as soon as the word left from me Keith got confused and for some reason Nicholas flinched.

I took a deep breath in and release trying to keep my calm ,I knew if this will ever happen i will lose all my sanity and i will see all my plan crumbling at my feet. This cant happen now when i am so close so close ....

"Kenna ,Are you okay darling?" Keith's voice broke the turmoil i am having in my head.

no I am not, I am not since the day ...since the day I met him for the first time.

"Yes i am fine ,Sorry Nick i didn't realize i will have any guest for lunch."I tried to muster a smile, I can't let Keith to see through me he will start questioning my every behavior. Sometimes its suck to have therapist with you!!

I looked up to Nick because he didnt utter a word yet ,but when i looked up i find him staring weirdly at Keith or rather his hand which is around my waist.

ohhh.....

I lean more on Keith and smiled at him and then turn to Nick. Will you like to have lunch with us.i saw him frown than he directed his attention to me clear his throat and mutter a soft yes thank you but then he turned away from me again.

i looked down at me to find what i am wearing a pale-yellow night short shorts and top and my body adoring with beautiful tattoos. i guess i have a very few places left in my body that isnt covered with tattoos.

is it another way to hide my identity ? may be .

I am now pretty tan with abs and biceps, my hair cut short however it has grown a little bit i think its time to cut it short again. May be buzz hair cut will look good on me. My body is covered with tattoos and I look very unlike my old self.

They went to freshen up and in the meantime i started Preparing the table for us .

Nicholas was very quiet when he came with Keith and sat down with .He is wearing Keith Shirt,He is lucky that Keith love baggy style other wise he wouldnt get any shirt that will fit him.

they started eating and for the first time in 5 years i actually bother to notice him or you can say i am able to notice him without breaking down with emotion. 

His hair has grown longer and he looks bulkier and he kind of broody expression in his face. I mean he lost the boyish charm that i li-

I stood up abruptly and went to the kitchen ,I should maintain a distance with him.

I bring back the hot chocolate and give both of them and went to sit on the couch.

Nicholas abruptly turn to me his eyes widen.

"What" i asked irritated or Curious.

"This...this tastes good" he said turning away.

"okay?"

its 2 hours since he came to my house he is busy talking to Keith ,i didnt wanted to have that conversation so i didnt join them. I was still sitting on the couch and wandering why this all of a sudden happening to me.

when i decided to leave him 5 years ago i had my reasons. I tried to forgive him but then i might have alraedy forgiven him a little and wanted to give a chance because i was falling for him and may be i was already in love but he never said any such thing.

i didnt wanted to misinterpret his actions,Once i did and i was going to tell him everything but that was the day he threw me out of his life like i never existed.