Maggots are eating at my brain

Eveything i haven't said

This morning my mom posted a video on her snap story of her complaining about me and shae being late. Now shae was trying to find her sweater so that's why we were late. My mom at some point made a comment about how if my room was clean we would be able to find it. Welp my rooms clean now and I'm still mad at my mom.

Once we were in the car and I finally saw I story I told her that there really was no reason why she had to post that. She said I sounded like my grandma criticizing what she posted. Firstly I wasn't being like my grandma, I was just saying what my mother did was completely and utterly wrong.
Bad parenting 101 ig.

I'm apparently not going to my grandparents, but I might be sleeping over at Danis . At recess everyone was talking about going to Leah's instead of the dance and I didn't say anything I wasn't really paying attention to it.

No one was directly talking to me about it so I just didn't say anything now I would totally go except Dani asked me if I could sleepover at hers so I said I'll ask my mom.

I honestly feel like I should have maybe involved myself in the conversation but I guess nobody really said anything cause I said I wanted to go to the dance.

Main reason why I want to go to the dance is because it gives me a bit of freedom per say. I also will get to see east. Which I try and take any chance to talk to him or at least be around him.

I hate not socializing lately.

I want to cry right now and I don't know why. I kept talking to jos about how since Leah and Mia left I can like feel the emptiness. I don't like it.