Maggots are eating at my brain

White noise

Okay I would just like to start off with the biggest apology I can give, I know it won't do much but I feel the need to apologize. If I have disregarded your feelings and your venting I sincerely apologize. I have gotten caught up in my own head for a while. But I've been trying to work on this.

I've been trying to talk to you more because I know I don't know much about you and that I mainly just know about your blonde boy ego (which is buttaful). I want to know on a different level than just the goofy giggly side.

I don't really know what to say I had in my head a whole paragraph but actually typing it is like giving me amnesia.

I feel like you feeling unheard drove you to go off the way you did. (That was pretty obvious) I understand, I do feel like there where a few jabs that weren't that needed but they weren't detected towards me so I won't state my feelings on it because everyone else has already stated there feelings on it.

I was expecting a bigger jab at me honestly. I'm surprised there wasn't but maybe that's cause we don't talk enough or you just didn't have anything to jab at me about but I'm pretty sure we're just not close enough.

I feel as though is was mean but with all the build up of you not feeling heard just resulted in you reacting like this.

I don't know what to really do to help and when your wrote about how you wanted to kill your self I didn't comment or text you because 1. I didn't read it till the day after 2. I didn't feel I had a right to text you.

I also feel like that what you all said was one sided and didn't really take in consideration of what others might be thinking.

But once again I'm sorry and I want to become closer to you. Not only to be more of a friend to you but too also have enough trust of you to come to me.