Maggots are eating at my brain

Catch up

I have completely ruined my food schedule. I eat once a day and that's normally dinner, and I don't even eat a lot when I do that.

I found out I'm a small in bra sizes.

I had a break down not to long ago. The guy that I like is autistic and has bipolar. He was getting annoyed with shae. A bit after he started getting annoyed shae found out some pretty bad news that had he breaking down. She started complaining about it and Baste ended up leaving the call so I texted him why he left. He said he was sick of her voice and didn't have time to deal with her problems. I texted him multiple times saying that it could have been handled a better way and that he could have just said "I'm sorry but I can't really handle listening to this right now." Every time I said something though he'd just he that he doesn't care. He also started saying goodbye to me and "have a good rest of your year." Honestly it upset me. I broke down that night. Shae ended up texting him on my phone calling him gross and weird, and other words.

Honestly I didn't know what to do. Turns out he blocked everyone that lived by him and unadded me. He also deleted almost all his social medias.

But anyways he added me back and apologized but I don't really know what to do. I'm not mentally stable enough to handle his episodes. I'm talking to him rn but I've kinda stopped calling and texting him as much. I'm tired.

My grandpa lost a lot of weight in the hospital but his heart is only working at 30%. And his stupid ass wants to go out at a church picnic. Like is there a part lose? Like it's a great idea to sit in the heat when you can barely walk. Have fun having a heart attack.