Maggots are eating at my brain

Blub blub

I woke up pretty early today, and I get pretty refreshed. Even if I did go to bed pretty frustrated.

Mainly because shae and the guy I'm talking to got into an argument and refused to forgive each other. Even if I wasn't involved it still affected me. I honestly didn't know what to do because shae has known him longer.

But they forgave each other today. And I was trying to show him all my clothes because I love when people let me show them things and go on a little rant about everything. But in the middle of it he had to go.

I think I like him. I mean I talk to him every day, and it's not just text we call. I think about him all the time it's fucking ridiculous.

But anyways away from my love life.

I cleaned my whole room today. I have a bit of more laundry to do today but that's about it.

I drank 84 oz of water today. I'm gonna watch bojack horseman as soon as I finish the show I'm watching. Which the show I'm watching rn is 3 seasons so I'm probably just gonna finish the first one and move on.

Im in slight pain rn. My cramps haven't been horrible lately, and it kind of scares me. Normally when I have a good one my next one is bad. But I have had 3 good ones. Not one day was I laying on the bathroom floor crying to my mom about how I wanted it to end.

I think one time it was so bad I spent hours in the bathroom and was starting to fall asleep. My mom kept coming in the bathroom making sure I was drinking water and making sure I was okay. My dad called too. She sat on the toilet on the phone with my dad while I was crying on the floor. A bit later I kept almost falling asleep so my mom said she was gonna take me upstairs. I didn't want to move. I finally wasn't vomiting my guts out. But I had to move. She grabbed a box and put a trash bag in it. We just got to the stairs and I was already on the ground throwing up. Once we got to the top of the stairs again I was on the ground throwing up. I remember my mom leaving me there and going in my room to set up my water and spot. Shae didn't want me in there because I was throwing up and she couldn't handle the sound. But my mom just said that I need to sleep and that she'll be fine. I remember laying there for a good 10 minutes before falling asleep the first 5 I kept throwing up but the last five I just kept drinking water and crying. I fell asleep and woke up fine.

I feel like that's the most annoying part of my periods. Is that they can be the most painful thing I've ever had to experience then after I take a 10 minute nap I'm all good to go. I don't understand.

Honestly if I get another one of these horrible periods I'm ripping my uterus out and shipping it to Mexican.

ANYWAYS

I cleaned my room. Put away dishes. Did laundry. I drank water.

It was a good day.

Tomorrow I have to do some more laundry and shower. I don't really know what else I'm gonna do. My mom will probably have me do the dishes maybe make dinner. I've actually made dinner all week even though my mom didn't work today.

Oh also I haven't told anyone but my mom quit working at the hotel so she doesn't work on the weekends.

I have a party on the 3rd from 1-6.

And I work 9-11 for Jamie.