𝐘𝐔𝐀𝐍𝐅𝐄𝐍 : 𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐕𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐄 (𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝟐) : 𝐉𝐉𝐊 𝐅𝐅

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I'm hurt now. I mean I still can't digest the fact that Mr. Jeon literally stood by her side who was his classmate at London, what about me then? I thought we were special back then.

I don't know what's wrong with me and I shouldn't be expecting more from my boss, after all I should be thankful that he didn't fire me. There's no wonder that Mr. Jeon chose to behave like this because she's his potential client and I'm no good for him.

I gain him nothing but embarassment and I almost lost my job today. I should check my tongue and act accordingly rather than clinging on to my past with him which is getting me all worn off for a mere incident like this.

I don't know why my brain is leading me to the past when he played along with me to confront Hanna, I mean I still do remember the way the chills ran through my spine when we did everything to make her jealous which in a way, benefitted both of us.

I shook my head so that I could keep my brain amd emotions in control because I do believe the fact of me being so transparent and high at emotions that I might portray myself so weary and sad.

I must appreciate the fact that he again taught me I shouldn't be stuck with the Jungkook I love, instead I should look forward in life just as how he isn't bound by our past as he easily moved one not caring about anything or anyone.

I don't know but tears brimmed my eyes and I started typing the explanation. My brain literally stopped working as I couldn't form any sentences nor could I find any words to type. Above all, he asked me to take a half day leave even after knowing I have lots of pending works to do, maybe that's a part of my punishment, sort of a temporary suspension, still that stings so bad because it's the phase that I never had in my entire career.

Maybe now I can easily relate to the phrase I said at the beginning, 'if you ask me what life means, it's fucked up' because I find myself speechless and answerless about my so-called life.

The expulsion and suspension, I think it's not the people around me who seem to have a problem but rather me who has a worst problem of controlling the way I speak.

I sighed and found few words for typing the explanation. I didn't bother to read for any correction because I don't have the heart to read the entire incident once again.

I clicked the sent button and looked at his cabin once again since I didn't find him or her getting out. They might be discussing about the issue that I caused and just a simple thought of her bad-mouthing me, which I'm sure of, is something I can't stand. At the same time, I couldn't avoid them in a relationship creeping up my mind. I mean he's my boss now and I shouldn't be indulging into his personal life, as an employee I should be in my limits and must focus on the process part, but this mere creeper thought is making things so messed up.

Maybe seeing him suddenly with a lady made me so insecure to the point that I questioned our beautiful past.

Of course he was in London for two years and as far as his attitude is concerned, he could have made a lot of friends and one among them might be Ms. Williams. Well, I couldn't blame him though, because she's attractive and a woman who owns a company unlike me who has got nothing but an apartment and a boring life with a dangerous personality.

His acceptance to this business alliance and the way he asked me for an explanation even when I wasn't at fault ate me alive and the most worst thing is - my mind playing tricks on me. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me that I feel something called jealous when I already know he isn't mine as how he used to be. I was an utter fool, an eccentric who easily got tricked in the past and the fun fact is that I'm not able to move on.