A love that is ours

5. Heartbroken

Hanni

I don't even know for how long I stayed at the park, just staring off at the beautiful sunset. I don't even know what I was doing wrong, why wasn't I happy? I was doing what was right, for me and my relationship with Heesung.

Keeping Minji far away from me.

Maybe it did hurt to do all this, because after all, we shared so much together but I have to do this and I hope she understands that. But I'll also understand if she's mad at me, I'm not even letting her breathe around me. I'm kicking her out of my life once more.

I decided that it was best to go back to Danielle's, even though Minji would be there. But I'm giving us both closure so we'll be fine, right?

I let out a sigh as I made why down the street, looking up at the sky as if it would give me answers to my situation. Maybe I was doing something wrong, but I'd never know what it is in particular.

Once I was reaching Danielle house, I could hear Haerin yelling. It caught me off guard as I watched the front door open, revealing a fuming Haerin whose eyes shot fire at me. There was anger and clear worry written all over her face.

"What did you do with my sister, Pham? Where is she? She was supposed to be with you." Haerin asked me and I shook my head at her. "She left a long time ago." I said and Haerin grabbed my shirt, she fisted my shirt with such anger that she almost ignored Danielle's pleads of letting me go.

"Why would you let her step foot anywhere near her?" Haerin asked Danielle with a glare. I stood there in complete confusion. "Haerin, she wanted to, I couldn't step in to her personal life. If she wanted to talk to her then we should let her." Danielle reasoned and she shook her head as she looked back at me.

"I lost my sister because of you! Do you understand that? I lost her and I just got her back, don't let me loose her again." It was all Haerin said as she shoved me away. She looked at Danielle with very sad eyes, her anger diminished as she headed to her car that was parked by the sidewalk.

I just stood there in shock, I had never seen Haerin act like that, she was never aggressive, she was always calm and usually never acted on to violence because she was against it with a passion. But not even a minute ago she would've knocked me out if Danielle wasn't here.

"Come inside." Danielle said as she grabbed me by the shoulders and led me in. She was silent as she led us inside her house that I seemed to not be welcomed at all. She sat us down on her couch as she took a deep breath.

"Forgive her, Hanni. She's only worried for her sister, that's all." Danielle said and I looked at her. "Why? What did she mean by all that she said? And what's her problem with me either way? Can't she accept that I don't love her sister anymore?" I asked and Danielle looked at me with sad eyes.

"Hanni, this is the first time in nine years and something months that we see Minji." I furrowed my brows at her, signaling her to continue. "That woman was nothing without you Hanni, and still isn't. She was heartbroken, like you'd never understand the pain of seeing her come back home barely being able to stand up in her own two feet." I looked at Danielle with surprise.

"Imagine what Haerin went through when her sister suddenly disappeared, leaving a letter behind just saying that she couldn't make it in life without the girl she loved." And my breath halted. "And in that letter, she promised to wait for you, for as long time needed. That one day you guys would meet again and be able to live the life you guys once talked about." With everything that Danielle was telling me.

I felt something inside my chest, I couldn't pinpoint what it was. "What did you tell her Hanni? Haerin is frightened that Minji will leave her again for another nine years or maybe she won't at all." Danielle said and I shook my head. Why isn't anyone understanding me.

"Danielle, I ended things with her so long ago, and I let her know that. Along with the fact that there is nothing that we can be, because I don't want her to be apart of my life in any way that exists." And Danielle only muttered curses.

"You know, Haerin had hope that you would make Minji permanently stay, because Minji is here only visit us, she promised to stay a month but I think you just kicked her out." Danielle said and I felt my heart sink.

"I didn't know, I didn't mean to." I said and Danielle waved me off. "I know, it's not your fault, you just so happen to have an ex that never got over you, that still loves you, and would do anything to be able to be anywhere near you." Danielle said jokingly but I can hear the truth somewhere in the there.

"Minji was someone else, we didn't recognize her at all. She never really recovered from all the damage she caused to herself. She was a different woman, heartless, cold, and just distant. Haerin suffered through those months of hell and then Minji just disappeared in to thin air. Absolutely nothing that could guide Haerin to her." I looked down at my lap, was this the damage I caused?

"Minji was heartbroken Hanni. Why couldn't you have stayed with her here?" Danielle asked, will Danielle also question me on this? I didn't know the answer then, I definitely still don't know it now.

"I don't know." Was all I said and she let out a sigh. "Why Heesung? You just killed her again, you knew those two hated each other before either one of them met you." Danielle said and I let out a sigh of my own. "It just happened, we were just there for each other and it became a strong bond that went beyond friendship." I said.

"You didn't see the face filled with hurt on Minji's face when Heesung told her that you were his wife. She lost Hanni. That's what she feels, she lost and lost you in the process. You do realize the amount of pain you're inflicting on her, right?" This time I let out a huff.

"What about me, Danielle? I'm hurt too!" I said and then Danielle threw a glare at me which shut me up. "Are you the one who never dared to look for someone else as they had promised to never fall in love again, and swore to only love the love of their life? I don't think so." And I rolled my eyes.

"That was stupid of her, why would she do that?" I asked and she looked at me. "Has being with Heesung blinded you? She did it out of love. Her loyalty to you is above and beyond the charts. You moved on Hanni, and good for you, but she hasn't, and maybe she never will." And I felt my heart racing inside my chest. Danielle has never spoken to me this way.

"The anger and resentment that Minji should feel for you, Haerin feels them instead. Minji never could hate you. No matter how many messages you ignored, or how many call you declined. That woman loved you regardless of all of those things and she still very much does." And hearing her saying it really made me see how much of an asshole I was to her.

"She didn't deserve it, especially not you kicking her out once more." And with that she stood up and walked away from me. Just leaving me sitting there conflicted with my own feelings.

How could it be so wrong?

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