A love that is ours

13. Let's talk

Hanni

I was doing exactly what Danielle told me to do. I was packing up my stuff, getting ready to leave. A part of me couldn't believe that my own best friend was doing this to me. I don't even understand why.

She allowed me to stay in her home, but now she's kicking me out? What's wrong with her?!

I don't even comprehend why she cares more about Minji than me. And how could she even say such thing about Heesung. I don't believe it. He's never lied to me, he's always been a very honest man with me.

He's been there with since the day he first approached me. If this is Minji being jealous, and it's her way of trying to get me back, she's failing so bad.

But I know Minji, well knew. Minji would never do such thing, she wasn't a liar, that's for sure. But it just doesn't sit right with me. I mean, they hated each other's guts back in the day and I never really knew why.

Could it be true? I don't want to believe it but there's always a possibility for these things. A possibility that would destroy me.

As I was going to close my suitcase there was a loud bang downstairs. I wanted to ignore it but the noice kept repeating. I heard Danielle's door open and I could hear Hyein talking to Danielle. The little one was scared.

With curiosity I stepped out of the guest room I stayed it in, but I froze once a my name echoed around the house. "Hanni!" It was Minji.

"Hanni!" She called out again. I looked at Danielle who looked back at me with worried eyes. I didn't know what was happening but I definitely knew that Minji was super drunk right now.

Once I made it to the top of the stairs, my eyes were caught with Minji's as she stood at the bottom of the staircase giving me a smile. "Let's talk, c'mon." She motioned me to go downstairs but I was scared.

I looked over at Haerin who was leaning against the wall, completely exhausted and it looked like she had cried.

I never saw Minji like this, this is a whole other person. "Hanni, go. Please, Hyein is scared." I looked back at Danielle who was hugging the little one who had her face buried. I looked back down at Minji, she didn't look like a threat, but everyone knew that Minji has a temper.

I just never saw that temper, and that's what I'm scared of. I took a deep breath as I made my way downstairs. Minji's smile only grew as she watched me. Her eyes turning in to cute little crescents, it's still as cute as it was back then.

Wait what?

Once I reached the last step, Minji took a step closer to me. Her brown orbs threaten to drown me if I dare to move away. "Let's talk." I said and Minji gave me a happy nod.

I looked back up at Danielle before I exited the house with Minji behind me, almost falling as she tripped on her own shoe. How does that happen? I don't know.

We were now on the side walk, away from the house but close enough if Minji tries to do something.

"What do you want to talk about?" I asked, making sure there was enough distance between us. Minji's eyes sparkled under the moonlight, or because she's completely boozed up.

But her eyes have always been so pretty, that's something I couldn't deny. And something else I couldn't deny was the fact that my heart was feeling a little funky as I kept looking at her.

"Why do you keep denying me, Hanni?" Her question caught me off guard. "What?" I asked confused. "You deny me, even as a friend. Am I some kind of monster to you?" She asked and I could only feel my heart tightening.

And I hated it.

I hate it when I let my walls down for even a sole second. Because it means that Minji still has a place in my heart somewhere, no matter how many times I try to kick her out.

She still lives within me.

"You live with the monster, Hanni. Why can't you see it?" She asked as she took a step closer to me. Tears formed in her eyes as she cupped my cheek. I stood there frozen not knowing what to do or say.

And what monster is she talking about?

"I understand you love him, and I'm not doing any of this to make you stop loving him. I can't do that, but what I can do is look out for you." Her eyes were so honest as she spoke that it left me in a haze.

"I don't want you to be hurt, understand that. You're too beautiful to cry over a man like him. He never deserved you either way." I could only look at her as I waited for her to continue speaking. My brain was too scrambled for me to even try and say something back. I could only listen.

"There are things I know, but I can't tell you them." I finally had the will to say something. "Why?" Minji let out a sigh. "You wouldn't believe me either way. You'd instantly accuse me of lying." And there it was, another tug at my heart.

"He's going to hurt you, your heart will be broken when you find out about what's truly been going on." She said and I let out a scoff. "As if you wouldn't hurt me." I said with sarcasm.

Minji looked at me with soft eyes as her hand that cupped my cheek, brushed softly against my skin.

"No, I would never hurt you, I actually value you."

And that was enough to shut me up. Value, speaking of that, when will Heesung reach out to me? It's been weeks and he hasn't responded to a single one of my messages. There's no way he's that busy.

Either he's mad at me for staying back, or he just wants to be alone.

"If I have to get on my knees to beg you to let me stay in your life, I will. And I'll do it for the sole purpose of being there for you. Nothing more and nothing less." She said, I shook my head at her. She's crazy if she wants to do such thing.

"Minji, you love me. I don't want to jeopardize my marriage with Heesung any more than it already is. Please understand that, Heesung would file for divorce if he knew that I'm here right now talking to you." I said and she let out a sigh.

"Hanni, I'm just trying to look out for you. And yes, I may still love you, but it's not the main reason I keep coming back you. It's because of you." She said and my mouth went agape. Me? What have I been doing?

"Hanni, you can lie to everyone else but me. I know you better than anyone, and I definitely know when you're forcing yourself to something. Your words hurt me, but I know you say them to convince yourself." She said and I felt like I wanted to shout at her. Not because I was mad, but because I hated how she knew me so well. She still did after all these years.

Maybe I'm not seeing it, but she is. What if I was convincing myself? That would explain the soft heart, but I know it's just because I hate hurting her, I hate seeing her so broken because of me.

Maybe because after all, Minji was good to me.

Minji only gave me a small smile as she stepped away from me, she turned around and headed back to the house. But stopped halfway.

"Talking about jeopardizing your marriage, you should ask him, he's already doing it."

What?

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