A love that is ours

Prologue

Hanni

"Do you really have to go?" Minji asked as she looked in to my eyes, her voice wavering as she spoke to me. I felt my own heart shattering as I looked at her.

I fucking hate myself for this.

"I have to, baby. I have to go abroad for my scholarship, you know that." I said as I grabbed her hand. Her soft and firm hand that I've held since sophomore year.

I'm going to miss her so much and I just hate that I don't have a say or really much of a choice. I want to stay here with her but I also have my dreams.

And I feel so selfish for it.

"I know, I wish you the best regardless." She said, pulling me in to an embrace that I wanted to stay in forever but I had a flight to catch soon.

I probably won't ever see her again.

"But, why? Why can't we try long distance?" She asked and I felt myself drown in her question. Why can't we? Why don't I want us to try it out?

Maybe I'm scared, or maybe I don't find myself capable of it. I don't know, but in my heart trying long distance with Minji is going hurt us both.

It's only a try to stop the inevitable.

"I don't want to hear those words, Hanni. I love you too much for you to utter those words to me." She said, and then I heard another crack at my heart.

Fuck. I'm going to hurt her so much.

"Minji, I love you too. Please, don't forget that. But this has to be done." I said in a pained whisper.

"Stay, Hanni. We can find a good scholarship for you here, just don't go. I won't bear being without you." She said, there was a plead in her voice as she whispered against my ear.

I had to stop this before I change my mind.

"Minji, let's end things here. I'm breaking up with you." And once those words left my mouth, I regretted it. But I couldn't do anything about it now.

I broke her heart, I completely shattered it.

Her breathing became shallow as she held me tighter. She broke down in my arms, I felt like a complete asshole for saying it without much care, but it was best for the both of us. I could feel my heart beating faster with ever sob Minji let out.

Her sobs were filled with pain. As the seconds went by, I could feel her hugging me tighter, I felt myself suffocating as the tears and hurt finally struck me. What was I doing?

What am I fucking doing?

"Flight 307 to the U.S will be taking off in two minutes, all passengers please report to the gate by the stated time."

And with that I quickly let go of her. Looking around as I realized the gate was nowhere near us. I had to hurry.

I turned to look at her, her eyes were puffy and red. Fuck, fuck! I hate myself so much, I'm sorry, Minji.

I gave her a knowing look and she gave me a quavering smile as she tried to hold her tears back. My soul shattering this time. Why am I doing this to her?

I needed to leave!

And with that I took a hold of my suitcase and didn't bother to look at Minji as I walked past her. Minji's scent entering my system, and that's when my own tears formed.

It wasn't until I almost reached my gate that I decided to look back and everything in me shattered as from a far, her hand was in the air. Waving me the most painful goodbye ever.

I quickly turned back around, this time sprinting to the gate, in hopes that the pain inside my chest will leave.

That I'll forget about this pain.

Minji, I love you.

Coming soon....