Tune of Rapture (Echoes #2)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

Kind

Kahit lasing ay tandang-tanda ko pa ang sinabi niya sa tawag.

Ako pa talaga ang itatali niya, huh? Bakit hindi niya itali 'yang mga gamit niya para hindi nakukuha ng kung sino-sino! Ang lakas niya mag banta, gawin niya kaya? Itali niya ako sa kama niya!

Instead of feeling scared by his words and threats, I was more excited to go back to Laguna. How could I not be excited? There's a tiger waiting for me.

Pero dahil sa sobrang kalasingan, tanghali na ako nagising. I was prolonging the alcohol in my system. Nag luto ako ng sabaw na wala namang lasa. Kulang-kulang ang gamit ko rito sa condo! Para tuloy ako kumakain ng kanin na nilagyan ng tubig.

My head was heavy as I left my condo. My eyes were drooping, so I wore glasses. I clicked my neck. I needed to get rid of the alcohol. Pasok ko na bukas sa Laguna.

I felt nervous because I knew I wouldn't have anyone with me when I go there. Sergo is mad at me. For sure, he won't accompany me because he's angry.

Bahala siya. Bawat punta kong Maynila tapos kapag babalik na rito, ganito ang nangyayari. Palagi kaming mag kagalit sa isa't isa.

Ano bang gusto niyang mangyari? Huwag na akong umuwi ng Maynila at mag stay na lang dito kasama siya? Itali niya na lang talaga ako para hindi na ako makaalis!

When I got tired of driving, I pulled over to the side of the road. I leaned down for a quick nap. I was really sleepy. I just forced myself to leave because I have school there.

Nagising lang ako sa malakas na tunog ng aking cellphone. Napamulat ako at bahagya pang nagulat dahil sunset na ang nasa harapan ko. Shit! Hapon na? Kinuha ko ang cellphone at imbis na oras ang makita ay number ni Sergo ang nakita ko.

Tumatawag pa talaga.

Iritado kong sinagot ang tawag at niloud speaker ang cellphone. I started driving again.

"The fuck are you calling for?!" I snapped when he didn't respond.

I heard his annoyed sigh, which only irritated me more. Ngayon pa talaga siya tatawag gayong nakabawi na ako ng tulog? Kayang-kaya ko na siya sigawan! Hindi na ako lasing!

"Wala ka talagang balak umuwi?" his voice was now more controlled.

I rolled my eyes. "Come on! I'll come home when I want—"

"What's your problem, huh? I'm getting tired. Tell me what your problem is! Communicate! Fuck!" he cursed, almost jumping out of the phone at me.

Hindi agad ako nakabawi dahil sa gulat sa bigla niyang pag sigaw.

My jaw clenched as I wondered why I was like this when talking to him. Syempre noong tinext ko na naman siya, si Kate na naman ang sumagot! Sinong matutuwa roon, huh?

And I won't deny it. Yes, I feel jealous! And what's his explanation for that? Kaklase? Kaklase na naman? Fuck that reason! Kaklase pero puro landi ang ginagawa imbis na project!

"I said if you have a problem, tell me. It's hard to guess. I don't understand you. You always confuse me. You're coming home like this? Why? Are you just forcing yourself to come home to me?" tanong ni Sergo.

Oh... that's not my reason.

Humigpit ang aking kamay sa manibela.

"Don't call me again—"

"So hard to read you." he suddenly said.

I gritted my teeth.

"Communicate with your feelings. Figure out what you really feel. Don't hide or keep it to yourself. Bring it out and tell me," seryosong sabi ni Sergo at pinatay na naman ako ng tawag.