Tune of Rapture (Echoes #2)

Chapter 27

Chapter 27

Fool

I left his room because I couldn't stand hearing what he was saying anymore. Despite being confused, I managed to understand what he wanted to say. I understood, and what's even more painful is that I believed it.

"Ginamit ka lang ng lalaking 'yon! Nilapitan ka lang para makuha ang gusto niya! Walang-wala ka na bang makausap at kahit sa manlolokong iyon ay nag pa-uto ka?" echoed Daddy's words in my mind.

I felt like my strength and my own soul left me. I closed the door of the room and wearily headed to the bathroom. Unang bumugad sa akin ang sarili kong halos hindi ko na makilala.

There were dark circles under my eyes, an overwhelming sadness in my gaze, no trace of a smile on my lips, and my complexion was pale.

I just came from a severe breakdown. I lost my mom. Dad fell ill. Our company is failing. I'm so exhausted. I'm so drained.

Tapos ganoon pa ang malalaman ko? Na ginamit lang ako ni Sergo?

Nanginig ang aking labi. Hindi ako naiiyak o ano. But I know, anger and resentment are starting to rise in my heart. All I feel is confusion. Did he use me? Why? All I can ask is why?

I want to know the answer, but I know Dad already said it earlier. He approached me just for the land. From the beginning, land was his intention.

Kaya pala simula pa lang, gusto niya na akong makilala. To find out where my weaknesses are and use them against me. He manipulated me. He pushed me into the pit he created.

Binuhay ko ang tubig sa harapan at nag hilamos ng mukha. My chest felt heavy, with no one to confide in about my problems. And the one person I should turn to... deceived me. He used me.

I didn't do anything to deserve this. I was honest about my feelings. I took a chance because I thought there was someone there for me during the lowest part of my life.

He said... he would always be there for me. He would be by my side when I couldn't handle it anymore. Ngayong hindi ko na kaya, nasaan siya?

I believed every word he said. I trusted everything he said because I thought it was true. I thought he loved me. But no, he only loved me because I have land. He loves the land and ranch, not me.

O, baka he only loved me because he needed money. He approached me because he needed a walking bank.

I thought he was different from the men I've known. They all only care about money.

I understand Sergo when he needs money. I understand because he's in the province. Alam ko kung gaano kahirap mamuhay doon. Kaya nga siya nag sisikap, hindi ba?

I see all his struggles. Pero kailangan pa ba akong lokohin para makakuha lang ng malaking pera? He deceived and manipulated me just to take the entire ranch from me.

Sergo has been deceiving me from the beginning.

Ginamit niya ako.

Tandang-tanda ko kung paano niya ako kinausap noon. Parang kung makalapit siya ay sobrang close na namin. He helped me with things I didn't know how to do, accompanied me when I needed.

Everything... everything he did seemed real. I hope... I hope all his actions were just lies. Because I can't accept it if even his true feelings were part of his plan.

The moments we shared together... kung titingnan parang hindi niya ako niloloko. The gleam in his eyes when he looked at me seemed genuine.

"Magaling manggamit ang mga naroon, Yazid! Sanay na sanay na sila mangloko ng mga tao! Nasasayo na lang kung mag papadala ka! Nag tiwala ka kaagad!" I heard Dad's words echoing in my mind.