I haven't been open about this for a long time, but I am now. I am hurt by how my childhood friend moved out to another city because of a cheating problem within their family.
He was the closest friend I had since my elementary days. We bonded a lot, played on the street, adventured in the fields, and so on. When they left, I lost most of my contact with him. I started to be addicted to mobile games, especially that one 5v5 game that is so popular in the Philippines. It's not the game that gives me problems, though it contributed as well, but I don't know what coping mechanism to use besides that one. I don't want to gaslight myself, but if that didn't happen, my life would probably have changed a lot as well, either for good or bad. But it is the truth, not that I control it, but it affected my growth, going downwards then peaking so high. That is with the help of another friend. Now it is a girl, and she was the top of our class in grades 9 and 10. We both had a crush on each other, but no motivation to go higher than that. Long story short, we parted ways before graduation.
That's not the highlight, though. The highlight is that I became the leader of our class and became more responsible. All of them are my friends, for sure, or not. I remember that one question in my Philosophy Subject, where I was asked who my friend in the class was, and I said all of them. Though I think they don't think of me as their friend. How dumb this thinking is. LOL
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10000 THOUGHTS
Non-FictionThought crisis of an eighteen years old. Not poor and not rich, yet rich. Part 1 out of 50.
