Cold love {teacherxstudent, wlw}

Part 45

*Danielle's POV*

"I was a bitch to her Ben" I say on FaceTime to Ben "It's no surprise she ignored me all day" I sigh.

"Hey, you had your reasons, what she did was definitely a bitch move" he starts to say "Yeah although I don't agree with you bringing up her family, that was a low blow" he finishes.

"Don't even remind me, I feel so bad" I say honestly, I can't get her out of my head.

"I'm sure you will have your chance to apologize, just give it time, she might need some" he says "So you are not mad anymore?" he asks.

"It's not that I'm mad, I don't think I ever was, I mean I was but not for the right reasons, it just infuriates me that she's been with so many woman, of course she can't change that but the fact I get reminded of this time to time I always get so upset" I say.

"Yeah I just really like her" I sigh, Ben snorts "Sure" he says in a sarcastic voice.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I ask "Can't you see Dani?" he asks.

I shake my head "What are you talking about?" I ask again "You are in love with her" he says.

I shake my head "No I'm not" I defend, I'm not in love with Valentina, we are not even together how could I.

"Come on Dani, you always think about her, you can't control yourself around her, you told her things you only ever told me, you can never sleep after a nightmare and it's not just that you can with Valentina but you don't even get nightmares when sleeping with her, you get crazy when you think about her past flings, you hate her parents even though you never once met them, and I'm sure as hell when Allison showed you those photos your first thought was Valentina losing her job not Harvard, I also know that you needed her after what happened, something happens you need her, you need someone you call her" he says, tears gather in my eyes, no it can't be.

"You are in love" he says "And it's okay, just because you admit it it doesn't mean the heartbreak will hurt more, no because those feelings are already inside of you" he says.

I wipe away a tear "I have to go sorry, we'll talk tomorrow" I hang up and start crying.

I don't love Valentina, sure I care about her and I like her but I don't love her, if you love someone you need them, if you love someone and they leave you, you feel like you'll die, me and Valentina are just sex, it always was and maybe it's more now, but love? never, that's not an option, I don't even think Valentina even admits she likes me.

I hear knocks on my door, I go down and open it.

It's Valentina, a bouquet of pink tulips in her hands "I'm sorry" she says handing me the flowers.

"Come in" I tell her, I put the flowers down "Let's go up to my room" I tell her.

I lead us up in my room, it's just a basic room but Valentina spectates everything like it's something she never saw before, my room is basically full of books my homework and projects, it's a white room with pink bows over the shelfs, my walls postered with Taylor Swift and with a picture of me and Ben and my mom.

"I'm sorry-" we both start and smile "Let me" I tell her, she nods.

"I shouldn't have told you those things, I had no right to talk about your family, nor did I have any right telling you they are controlling you, it's not true and I was way out of line" I admit.

"Thank you, I appreciate it" she says.

"As for my part I shouldn't have gotten the job done in such a cruel way, you didn't deserve that, it's just in my nature, I know that hurts but it's the truth, and while I can't promise you a lot of things I can promise to never lie to you" she says, I smile.