Cold love {teacherxstudent, wlw}

Part 63

*Danielle's POV*

After 20 minutes of driving in silence we arrive at my house, I unbuckle my seatbealt.

Before I could open my door Valentina grabs my wrist "You don't have to do this" she says, I yank my hand away from hers.

"Bye" I say before I get out of the car, I start walking towards the house when I see Valentina turning the car off, she doesn't move out of the car though, what is she doing?

I walk back to the car "What the hell do you think you are doing?" I ask, her window is down so it's easy to communicate.

"What does it look like?" she asks "I'm staying" she shrugs.

"No you are not, get going Valentina I don't want you here" I lie, she can't stay here when I know what will happen once I get in.

"I will go in, you can't change that" I tell her, maybe she will listen to me.

"I don't want to change that, I know you are going to go in but I want you to know that I will be waiting outside for you, that I am here and I won't leave you, no matter what you choose" she says, I look at her confused.

"I can't change your decision, but I sure as hell can be there for you after what will go down in there" she says, I start to shake my head.

"Please just accept it Danielle, you have no idea how much of restrain I need to not take you away or better yet go inside and fuck up that fucker" she says, I let out a breath.

"Fine, but I won't come back" I say before I leave her and open the door.

My dad immediately sees me and runs towards me, he pushes me into the wall before he grabs my wrist.

"5 minutes, I said 5 minutes" he says before hitting me across the face.

I feel tears going in my eyes, you can never get use to this.

He pushes me harder into the wall, the circulation in my wrist slowly stopping because of how hard he is gripping me.

"I gave you an opportunity to fix our relationship" he spits "I told you we could go to your mother's grave together" he continues, another hit "But you.." another hit "You are an ungrateful little shit" he hits me again.

He pushes me down to the floor before he goes upstairs, I try to stand up but I feel too weak for that.

Valentina. Her name is in my mind, she is outside, I need her, that's all I know when I stand up from the ground and run out from the house.

Her car is still here, I smile weakly, as soon as she sees me she gets out of the car and takes me into her arms.

I start sobbing even more "I'm so sorry" I tell her crying, she just holds me, and rubs circles over my back.

After a few minutes I pull away, Valentina wipes my tears away, I've never seen her like this, she looks like she is in so much pain just by looking at me, her eyes are glistering.

"Valentina.." I say before I reach for her, she pulls away "No, just come on, let me take you home" she says before we get into the car.

The car ride is silent, I can tell Valentina is mad, probably at me "Why did you come here if you knew you would be just mad at me?" I ask her in a whisper.

Her grip tightens on the wheel "I let you go in there because I thought that was the right choice, to show that I don't control you and I'm here for you no matter what, I though I will let you make your own choice and that me being there for you would be enough" she says her voice firm, no emotion in them.

"It is" I tell her "Clearly it isn't Danielle, have you seen what he did to you? And I was what 10 meters away? How do you think I should deal with this right now?"she says, I flinch.

She realizes "I'm sorry I didn't-" I shake my head "No just leave it be" I say.

Valentina lets out a breath "I'm sorry darling, I'm not mad you" she says quietly.

"I'm mad at myself" she admits "I let you get hurt, again" she says.

I look at her "No, don't think like that" I say "You were right I shouldn't have went home in the first place" I say.

"Then why did you?" she asks , I suck in a deep breath "Because there were times I didn't and I wished I was dead because of those consequences" I admit quietly.

Tears threaten to flood just by the thought of those nights, he didn't stop after a few minutes, he went on for hours, there were times I couldn't go to school for a week, where I couldn't even get out of bed.

Valentina's hand finds my thigh "It's almost over baby" she says, I smile at that.

We soon arrive at her house, we go inside, Valentina brings me a cup of tea.

"Drink this, I will draw you a bath and then we can cuddle if you want to" she says smiling slightly.

I slowly drink my tea, my fathers words ring in my ears, him asking me to go see my mom together, maybe if I did he would be better, maybe if I did-

"The bath is ready darling" Valentina says, I nod before I put down my now empty mug on the table.

We walk up to Valentina's room, we go into the bathroom.

We both undress and get in the warm bath, Valentina washes me and gives me kisses the whole time, we don't talk but it's okay, I feel warm and safe with her.

Once we get out of the bath she dries me off and helps me get dressed, she gets dressed too and before I know it I'm in bed with her cuddling.

My head in on her chest, I can hear her heart beating, it's so calming, Valentina's hands are in my hair rubbing circles over my scalp.

"June 17th" I whisper, Valentina looks down on me, waiting for me to elaborate.

"The accident was on June 17th, it will be 5 years this year" I quietly say, Valentina furrows her eyebrows.

"Your birthday is on June 2nd" she says, I smile, of course she knows when my birthday is.

"Yeah, she died 2 weeks after my 14th birthday" I say, Valentina's hands are still soothing me.

"You know" I start " It's been almost 5 years and I can't go to her grave" Valentina's hand doesn't stop, I snuggle closer to her "I'm always standing before the cemetery, I stand before the gates for hours and I can never go in" I admit, no one knows this, not even Ben.

"I don't know why I can't go in, I let her go Valentina, I did" I say, Valentina's hand go down to my back and she starts rubbing me there.

"It's okay darling, I don't think it's because you didn't let her go" she says "I don't even think it's because you don't want it to be real, I just think you haven't had that push yet that you need to go in there" she says calmly.

"By that I don't mean by any means you should go in there under any circumstances if not because you want to" she adds quickly, I smile a little.

"I'm just saying that if you need me I will go with you, even if you can't go in I will sit with you for hours before that gate" she says, there it is again that overwhelming love I feel for her.

I look back at her and I kiss her "Thank you" I say "For everything" I add.

She gives me a kiss on my head "Rest darling" she says.

"Just stay with me" I say before I close my eyes.

"Always" she whispers before she gives me another kiss.

If I wasn't with Valentina right now I couldn't sleep, but I'm with her, she is my safe place, she always will be.