Alpha King Jeon Jungkook || TZUKOOK

CHAPTER 17

Her eyes held the pain and it tore me apart. It was the first day that we spent time together and on the very first day, she heard something she shouldn't have heard. She does not fault this. She just knows nothing. I was the one who brought her here without caring about anything and we can't blame someone for being kind. Whether it brings death to me or not, I just can't remove her from my life just because she's a kind woman and would make mistakes in the future. After all, I can't say that she would do the same thing as my mom.

"Grandpa, I... I like women like her and I can't help it. Whether she will bring death or not, I can't undo what I've already done. Please... can we talk about this later? I was about to take them out now"

I don't know whether Tzuyu heard what I said or not because she just simply walked away but I don't mind. I can't just watch her leaving us. I want her to be with me, be with Ayaan. My words made Grandpa clench his jaws. I can understand his feelings too. I can understand how painful it was to lose his son and the woman his son loved. I am aware of his pain but... but I just...

I'm just trapped between two different worlds. I don't know what to choose. I need both. I need Grandpa and I respect him because he was the one to raise me and be with me all the time and at the same time, I need Tzuyu too. She's my mate, my son's mother, and already my Luna. I know I'm already falling in love with her. So how can I let go of her? I can't do it and I can't ignore Grandpa too.

I sighed and covered my face with both my hands not knowing what to do. I never knew what happened to my parents until now. I just never knew they had to go through that kind of thing.

"So you are saying you can't send her away? You are saying that you can't listen to me?"

Grandpa sounded disappointed. "I don't mind you using her for your needs but can't make her your Luna!" What should I do? I don't want him to be disappointed. I just don't want him to be.

Why did I even fall into such a difficult situation? I remained silent for a moment thinking about an answer to give him. But he shook his head and turned to leave. I don't want to hold any grudges with him. He's my only relative in this world. I can't let him leave with anger in his heart towards me for choosing a woman over him.

"Grandpa... you know what, I never wanted to have a surrogate. I never wanted to have a child either. But just because you wanted me to do it, I agreed with you. I was never willing to do it. And about Jennie, I never liked her. I agreed to engage with her because you told me she was a good match for me. I did everything to impress you in my life. This is the first time I made a decision on my own. It's because I can't resist her. She's my mate... For two years, every time I looked at Ayaan, it reminded me of her. That's why I made this decision."

I didn't say much more. I just asked him if he would accept me or not. But what I said was true. I did everything because he asked me to. He said it was the best thing for me. So I listened to him. This is the first thing I did without asking him. I even got his advice before breaking off the engagement with Jennie. He let me do it when I said I don't want to continue it anymore so why can't he just give me permission for this? What's wrong with Tzuyu? He can't think of all women as the same, right?

And I can't bring myself to believe that showing kindness towards someone is a sin. I don't find it stupid. Isn't it the best thing for a woman to have? A kind heart? Rather than becoming rude and disgusting like Jennie, it's better to be kind like Tzuyu. She's loving, charming, and adorable. She's lovable and likable.

I believe that my mom was also the same and that's why dad must have been in love with her madly. Isn't it a blessing to have a woman like my mom? I lost her at such a young age and I don't know much about her but I can see her from Tzuyu if grandpa is saying she's similar to my mom.