So Close Yet So Far (ON HOLD)

Chapter 40

I can't sleep. I couldn't believe what just Hugo said to me. I wondered if it's true but I think he is not lying this time.

Danger.

It's dangerous to be with him. He said I haven't noticed it yet because he probably also prevented it.

I tried looking back in the past. Pero wala akong maisip na ukol rito, ni isang beses hindi ako nakaramdam na nanganganib ang buhay ko. I was living normally while he is living in misery...

He said he prefers for me to stay at home kesa mag trabaho, pero gusto niyang mamuhay parin ako ng normal kaya pinili niyang hayaan ako sa gusto kong gawin.

Is this one of the reason bakit mas pinipinili niyang sa bahay kami manatili tuwing monthsary ng aming kasal? Dahil delikado ito sa paningin niya?

Sabi niya rin na may mga tauhan siyang nagbabantay sa akin pero bakit hindi ko sila maramdaman. Am I that blind? Or are they just good at their job?

How come I never noticed any signs, the time na namroroblema siya, was I part of it?

During the first few months of our marriage I didn't work yet, I stayed at home dahil pinili ko na wag mag trabaho muna. When I started working, I noticed some slight changes from him, lagi na itong mas naging busy.

He even tried to stop me from working, I remembered.

"Do you really want to work?"

"Oo naman. Kailangan kong gamitin ang napag aralan ko so that, the years that I spent in school is worth it." Sabi ko as I try to fix his tie.

Next week is the time that I will officially start working in our company at hindi ko mapigilan maexcite dahil rito. After years, I am finally ready for the job.

"You don't need to work, I can provide for us." Anya sa marahan na boses.

I know he could, but I don't want to be dependent and besides, I really have to work in my father's company dahil walang mag mamana nito kundi ako.

I have the ability to work so might as well use that, rather than be at home doing nothing. Wala din naman akong pag aabalahan sa bahay dahil wala rin naman akong kasama pag wala siya.

"I am my father's heir Hugo. I have to be with him. Kung may kapatid lang ako then I would have lived a different life but no and I love our company. My dad worked hard for it, I don't see any future that doesn't include me under my fathers wing." Nakangiti kong sabi.

I tapped his coat kahit na maayus naman na ito. I just want to make sure. Napatingin ako sa seryuso nitong mukha na nakatingin sa akin ng deretso. Handsome as always.

Tumango tango siya sa sinabi ko. I couldn't help but think about the fact that he said he can provide for us. We are really in this together huh?

"And besides do I really strikes you as someone who prefers to stay at home?" Biro ko sa kanya.

Do I really look like those girls who prefers to be a housewife? I would love that soon but not now.

"No." He said and smirked.

Good, I want to be a woman with a career and a successful one. It's not bad being dependent with your husband specially if you and husbands both agreed and want it but I have different priorities now. Not now.

I couldn't help but think, when we were together.

During those nights na wala siya, asan siya?

I have a lot in questions in my mind, pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko ito masasagot dahil wala sa akin ang sagot nito.