𝓢𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓯𝔂 》✮ TMR, Newt

057 - Secure or insecure?

CHAPTER 57
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I felt jealousy travel through my blood system.

I had never worried about Newt before. When I saw Teresa even though she is really pretty I knew Newt wouldn't look at her that way. Only as a friend.

But after I saw how those girls acted towards the others I started to doubt myself.

They were indeed better than I was.

We were being escorted back to our room.

Again, I sat down on my bed as usual. I don't know how will I make it through the day just in a room with people I don't know. Maybe should I try and talk to them?

Even if I wanted to they did it before me.

"Hey, you're Stella right?" A girl with long blond straight hair shot me a smile.

"Yeah". I nodded.

"Would you like to join us?"

Don't trust them.

I froze. My instincts are talking to me. Something is warning me that this would be a bad idea.

"Yeah, why not?" I smiled back and walked over to the bed where they were sitting.

"Did you know these guys? The ones at breakfast".

Of course.

"Yes, we were in the Maze together". I nodded. I didn't feel very comfortable at that moment. Was that what they wanted to talk about?

"And the blonde? You know him-?"

"Yes, he's my boyfriend".

Either they can't breathe or they are really, really shocked.

I guess the second one.

"You guys are dating?" Another girl stammered.

"Yes around two months". I nodded. I couldn't hide the satisfaction in my voice.

"Congratulations then". The blonde shot me a smile.

There was a knock on the door.

"Ladies is shower time". A man appeared in the doorway.

All of the girls got up and I followed too. Did I just attempt to make friends?

We were now in the same showers I was in when I first arrived.

At that moment I noticed two other girls changing.

Guilt, shame, and embarrassment are what I feel at the moment.

After what the damage I had done to my body I cannot accept myself. My stomach is small and my curves are bigger. Also, you can see some bones from the sides.

"Won't you shower?" One of the girls asked me as she was taking her shirt off.

"Yeah-I will". I forced a small smile.

I slowly took my shirt off not ready to face myself again. Newt is the only person that I don't feel uncomfortable when he sees my body.

Gasps and whispers spread from the other side of the room.

I don't want to be here. I got in the shower stall and closed the door.

Breathe. It will be over soon, breathe.

I waited for two minutes maximum for the other girls to get in the showers.

I got out of the stall and put on my shirt. I knocked on the door.