Islan-Dise

Better Tomorrow

Islan
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Why is this so...ugh. I can't seem to get ahead of my nerves. I can't seem to think of anything but him getting over me.

I wait for the CO to come get me. I cleaned up for him as best I could, with what little we had to work with. I know what he looks like, familiar with every beauty mark, scar, or hair on his body. Still, nothing can prepare me for his in-person appearance.

Heavenly.

My heart pounds, drums inside my chest. Doubt withers away, replaced with emotion.

Could have sworn I saw a halo. He's just as nervous as I am. We make eye contact and my feet are leaving the ground. My palms become sweaty and I can't contain my anxiousness. I wait for the chains to be removed from my wrist and ankles.

The moment he's in my arms we both hold on for dear life, crying into each other's necks. Our bodies communicate how difficult this has been. I smell his him, feel him. "I love you...God knows I fuckin love you." I mumble not his ear.

"I love you too." He says softly.

"Enough." The CO taps me.

We regretfully release each other. We take a seat. I reach under the table, feeling for his hand that clings onto mine instantly. We wipe our tears with our free hands. "I would have came sooner but they were giving me hell."

"I know, the same with me. I don't care bout how long it took...I'm so fuckin happy to see yo ass man."

"You gained weight."

"Fifteen pounds." I laugh. "I always been a twig, so I like this weight on a nigga."

"I like it on you too. Sorry for just staring. You look
so handsome. I don't know what I was expecting but you're glowing."

"Aaight Tre." I let go of his hand under the table and caress his thigh.

He giggles. "I wish. It's in my mind so damn much."

"You...I haven't beat my meat this much since 9th grade."

We crack up.

"Wish I was able to see." Tre bites his bottom lip.

"Tre, don't do that shit. Um already tryin my hardest to not snatch you across this table."

"I'll be good."

"So, what's up? You an independent man na. I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T...he go his own house, he got his car, two jobs work hard he a bad broad."

"First, I'm homeless but my job is going really good. I work for some really nice people. You would like me there."

"I bet they love you. I'm happy everything worked out. I was so mad at how I left you. As yo man, I was disappointed in myself."

"Don't be and we each others men. We take care of each other. This isn't a one way relationship. I got your back too."

"I wanna kiss all over you and just hold you. I don't wanna be apart from you anotha second."