Islan-Dise

Again and Again

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Islan

"You loved her?" Boon looks at Jakovi.

"To death."

"Same. Would have did anything for her." My dad says.

I try putting the small fish on the hook but I'm having some trouble. "Let me help you out." My dad sits beside me on the dock. I watch as he grabs a new fish out the cooler and places the fishing pole between his legs. He grabs the hook and pierces the fishes side.

"Tryna see what the fuck y'all saw? I mean don't get me wrong, she pretty. But she ain't right in the head."

"Elaine had plenty sense back then. She just had more things going on than I knew. I would have been willing to stay and help her figure it all out."

"See I don't get what the problem was at all. If she had two people willing to be with her, then why be on so stupid shit? She really the reason I couldn't stand bitches. Maybe that's why I was able to be attached to niggas easier. I just don't really trust women. I have this fear of them just doing some weird stuff."

"Could be. It's sad though cause she was someone you could depend on. But I do know about her getting with Pea dad and him introducing her to snow." Jakovi said.

"Same. I had seen her once when I visited. She was completely dead in the eyes and had lost weight. I figure it was drugs but I hated to see it."

"I found some of it a few times and we fought for hours about it. No child ever wanna see they mama like that." My chest burns.

My dad reaches out and rubs my back. "You right. Again, had I known you all could have lived with me."

"As good as that sounds...ion know if I still woulda met Tre and I love him. I would really go through all that shit again if it was the only way I could have him. But I would have Boon them life be better. I could have went through it alone again and again if it
meant having him."

"Damn son. I would say that's true love."

"And Tre love him. Love his ass mo than he even be deserving sometimes." We all laugh.

My phone rings. I answer without looking. "Hello."

"King."

I turn away from everybody. "What's up Flip?"

"They got it all out. It's gone. Um cancer free." He was excited but his voice was weak.

I feel my eyes burning from the tears that were coming. "Man, they fah real?"

"Yeah. I swear on our friendship."

I wipe the tears before they fall. "I love you man. Imma come see you the moment we done out here."

"Na. I just wanted you to know imma be aaight."

"Imma bring Tre...we coming to see you and you can't do shit bout that. I haven't even been able to really sleep wondering what the results was gonna be." I speak quietly into the phone.

He starts laughing.

"What?"

"Um cancer free man...shit." Now I had the relief in his voice. "I had given up. I ain't tell you but a nigga ain't think he was beatin this shit."

"You was making it if I had to go see God my self. We gon be old niggas one day."

"Yeah, I know." We both stay silent for about a minute.

I look over and see Jakovi and my dad showing Boon the exact way to hold the rod. He was saying something funny because they both started cracking up. Then I get this weird feeling in my stomach and I just smiled at them.