We'll Be Alright

Chapter 53

Fynn

I lay on Elianas chest, hugging her belly.

She's long asleep.

Her hand is resting on my head.

Fingers in my hair.

Hugo is sleeping next to us on Elianas side of the bed.

I'm so deep in this hiding thing.

Hiding from my wife.

It's awful.

I know she suspects something.

Not that she told or asked me anything.

But I know that gaze of hers when she senses something's wrong.

And even though we both know we need to sit down and talk it all out, we don't.

But we also do not not talk.

We talk like always.

Kiss like always.

Make love like always.

But there are some times when she looks at me differently.

Hurt.

Suspicious.

Confused.

I have no idea why.

Does she know?

But from whom would she know that I was hiding this magnesium value thing from her?

I exhale deeply.

Eliana groans softly, moving her hand on my head.

"Baby?"

"Shhh", I lift my head, "go back to sleep."

"Why aren't you asleep?"

"Sleep, my love."

"What time is it?"

"It's night, baby."

"Cuddle me", she lifts her hands to me.

I smile and move up to her.

She snuggles against my side and I wrap my arm around her.

My free hand caresses her cheek and hair.

"Fynn, I love you."

My woman.

My wife.

"I love you, baby"

"Please don't hurt me anymore", she mumbles.

I freeze.

Where did that come from?

When did I ever have her the intention of that?

Oh now we will definitely talk tomorrow.

I look up at the ceiling.

I can't sleep.

I haven't slept well for weeks.

It's been horrible.

I've only slept five hours at the very most.

I'm so afraid that this baby will hurt her.

Again.

I can't let that happen.

And the worst is, I can't prevent it from happening.

Only God can.

I've been praying so much.

Begging Him to not hurt her through a lesson that horrible again.

Only God is my savior.