Laws in Love II: Spencer Ace

Chapter 27

“I did…I had exes after you too.” I lied, on the second part but I have moved on.

Umiwas agad siya ng tingin at igting ang panga habang nanatiling madilim ang kanyang mga mata.

I just can’t say that I didn't have any relationship after him because I am sure he will think of it differently…and I felt like there's a need for me to say it to his face.

Hindi lang talaga ako nagkaroon ng panahon na sumubok muli sa relasyon. I was pretty exhausted and drained at the last one and all the things that happened after that. I had other more important priorities than myself or my lovelife.

Tumikhim muli ako kaya muli siyang napatingin sa akin. I smiled a little bit and showed him the food he brought.

“But thank you still for this. You should go home, maaaga pa at may mga bisita pa kayo sigurado.”

Agad siyang umiling.

“If you moved on, then I’m not.” Nanghihina nitong saad na siyang nagpabura ng ngiti sa labi ko.

He then took a step forward and occupied the distance between us. While I was rooted in my place. I just watched him stand in front of me. 

“I’ll never move on from you…Mr. Narvaez. I’ll never do it in this lifetime.” He whispered weakly with eyes glimmering with regret and darkness.

My lips parted as I looked up to him, wide eyed. 

“And even if I had the option to do so, I never will.” He added more, in a weaker voice this time.

Kusang napahakbang ako papalayo sa kanya pero sa panghihina ng mga tuhod ko ay parang wala rin iyong silbi. We remained close to each other.

Ramdam ko rin ang pag iiba ng ritmo ng kabog ng dibdib ko sa mga sinabi niya, at kahit na gusto ko iyong ipagsawalang bahala ay hindi ko kayang pigilan.

No one has ever affected me like this more than him. Sa kanya lang talaga ako nakaramdam ng ganito…and I am hating myself for that.

“W-why? Gusto mong makipagbalikan?” Natatawa kong saad pero patuloy na nanginig ang labi ko. 

I bit it right after and let out a smile while he remained the same, seriously looking down on me. 

“Yes.” He directly confessed without any hesitation.

Hindi ko mapigilan na hindi tuluyan na mapatawa roon. And I took that opportunity to step back more from him. Nagrambulan ang kaba at halo halong nararamdaman ko sa dibdib sa diretso niyang sagot. But I needed to stay on my ground and be reminded of the things that he had done in the past. 

Hindi na basta-basta iyon mawawala at makakalimutan. At hindi ko na lulunurin ang sarili ko ulit sa ganoong bagay.

Umiling ako sa kanya habang unti-unti ay ramdam ko ang pamamasa ng mata ko.

“Too bad, Spencer. Sa iba ka na lang, I have moved on just like what I said…at paano kapag napagod ka ulit diba? Bibitaw ka ulit?” 

And I couldn't help but smile bitterly at the end of it. 

Humugot ako ng malalim at mas lalong nag igting ang panga niya sa sinabi ko.

“Of course. Hindi ko nama isusumbat ang kalagayan mo noon. You have suffered a lot, marami kang iniisip pero…hindi lang naman ikaw ang napagod sa ating dalawa. Napagod rin naman ako—”

“Senorita, pinapatawag na po kayo ng Mommy niyo!”

Naputol ang sasabihin ko ng marinig ang pagtawag sa akin ni Ate Wilma na kalaunan ay tuluyang nakalapit sa amin.