10 months, 10 chances || Minsung

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"You- what?"

Jisung was confused and angry and sad but above all he was hurt. It wasn't that he still loved Changbin, he moved on from that with the help of Minho. It was more the betrayal he felt, he trusted Minho, he opened up to him to get a genuine relationship out of it, he told him his secrets, made himself vulnerable and for what? For Minho to break his heart just after starting to fix it again.

It was the point that they could've started to be a thing, they confessed and they kissed and if it wasn't for Minho telling him the truth they could be happy now, instead of Jisung tearing up and Minho looking at him with guilt filling his eyes.

Jisung didn't want to know the truth he'd be fine with staying in the dark if it meant being with Minho, he'd rather be lied to than hurt like that. For Minho though he just couldn't live with hiding something like that from Jisung. It hurt himself knowing that he's lying to the person he loves and he just couldn't bring himself to start a relationship with such a lie, because that lie was basically the start of their friendship. Minho knew that he wouldn't get to talk to Jisung if Changbin was always around, Jisung never stopped walking next to him. It just wasn't possible to talk to Jisung like that so he had to make them break up.

But it wasn't like Changbin was good for Jisung anyway, and Minho knew that, he heard Changbin talking to one of his other friends so if it wasn't for the breakup Jisung probably would've been hurt more if he found out. Minho needed Jisung to know that, maybe then they could have a chance.

"I can explain-"

"I don't wanna hear it" if Jisung was talking what his head would want him to say, his answer wouldn't be 'I don't wanna hear it' it would be 'please explain, tell me you had a reason and please let's be happy' But he's been hurt too many times now, his heart was talking and it didn't want to risk any more cuts and punches. To let Minho explain would just make him get his hopes up and if his explanation wasn't that good, Jisung would just get hurt all over again, he didn't want that.

And the worst thing about all of that was, that if Minho would ask him to accept his apology and to start new he would say yes, and then he would just get hurt again and again. His heart couldn't handle that. He couldn't handle any more pain it was too much for him, his body started shaking and quiet sniffles could be heard.

"Jisung please I did it for you, you have to let me explain"

"For me? You say hurting me is only for my own good? Are you nuts?"

"You need to listen to me okay? I-"

"Save it, I don't want your explanations"

With that Jisung stood up, he just wanted to leave. He didn't care about anything in the moment he ran out of the school leaving his friends behind, while walking as fast as possible he sent a message to Aera and Felix, they were the only ones that were really close to him, after Minho. He texted how sorry he is, that none of it was their fault, they should forget him and be happy, he's thankful for everything they've done for him. He was sure if he just wrote a little bit for his other friends in the text he sent to Felix they would read it. He didn't have the strength to text everyone, it would take too much time. And then he threw his phone down the bridge into the water, staring down not sure if he should actually do it.

The moment Jisung left the roof Minho was in shock, he didn't think it would have such a big impact on Jisung, at least he didn't think that when he talked to Changbin. The only thing in the back of his mind was to protect Jisung. And he fucking failed.

He rushed back down the stairs into the school searching for Jisung in all bathrooms, even the ones for girls, he desperately needed to talk to Jisung. Minho wasn't sure what Jisung would be doing by now and he was scared he would lose him. The moment he went back to his friends they all stood up taking him outside, everyone talking at the same time making Minho go crazy.