✮𝔦𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔬 𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔶✮

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𝐀𝐱𝐥𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: I found y/n walking down the street, I was so fucking pissed at Erin, she knew this would fucking happen, I hope she understands, she better fucking understand. But she seemed very upset about everything, I felt so bad, I couldn't even imagine y/n having sex with another man, I would probably fucking kill him. Even if it was Izzy. But I walked with her to her house we didn't say anything till we got there, I could assume she was still very angry with me, I would be too if I didn't have explanation like she did right now, don't worry baby, I'll tell you everything,

we arrived safely to y/ns house she opened the door and lead me to the couch "you want coffee?" She asked me I just nodded me head yes, coffee sounded good right now, after she was done making it she came over and sat next to me with her knees to there her chest, "so are you going to fucking tell me why you were fucking another women axl." She said to me flat out, "y/n I understand this looks bad but it's not what you think it is, I was being blackmailed, if you remember a wild back I had this girlfriend "Erin everly" that cunt she was just another whore, she always wanted to fucking ruin my career, I didn't want to fuck her, she was going to bring a old court case back to light, she knew the person involved and I didn't know what else to do I knew she wouldn't take my money and I don't have much to give I'm sorry y/n and that why I treated you like shit today she called me early and I shouldn't have taken that out on you baby and I'm sorry."I went in for a hug, she backed away, "I think we should take a break axl." Those words hit me like a fucking bus, I couldn't lose her, "why baby, why I can't lose you." I say reaching my hands out, "axl you don't think I feel the same way, but there has been nothing but problems since we started dating ax, all I ever wanted was you and I got you and now I have to let you go for now, we aren't breaking up, we are just taking a pause in our relationship okay?" She said with tears in her eyes, I didn't know what to say or do, I just left. I got up and opened the door and left. And didn't come back for weeks, let me show you how those weeks went

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐬 (𝐚𝐱𝐥𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯)

I did nothing but rot in my room, I wasn't even eating, I barley took care or Izzy, I didn't even leave my bed to piss, I had a water bottle next to me I would use, this felt like rock bottom, I was so close to calling a drug dealer and getting my side whore heroin, she always felt like she helped when I was down, so I did it I called my guy and he sold to me, all I could think about is when me and y/n did it, it felt great, we were so happy, I wish she would call or something, all I wanted was my baby.... I couldn't stop myself from shooting up, I started running out of veins. Fuck. Fuck. This wasn't supposed to happen. Izzy found me on it a few times over these week, the last time he took it away, and I just sat in my bed manically crying and sweating, I could stop puking, I felt like total shit, I wanted to be happy again, y/n made me happy, how long was this fucking break going to last? I need her. I didn't have her. That was hard to admit to myself, my body was sore, my veins were turning grey, I was losing weight by the days, I was slowing killing myself. And I didn't care too much, I had nothing to fucking live for. Izzy came into my room one is these days they all really blended together, "axl, this is enough, get your ass up and let's start working. We were supposed to make music a week ago now." I turning the other way , showing I didn't want to talk to him, "axl wake up" I just kept ignoring him. I heard him leave the room. It was days later, nothing really happened, I shoot up two more times, it lasted longer for me than other people, maybe because I'm not used to it , I honestly don't know, I had no motivation to do anything, I had like ten piss bottles next to me, a few needles, and just Polaroid picture of us. I missed her so much. I just needed her back. This wasn't fair. Yes we had our bumps and downs but we were still happy, it was like we were still best friends. But we fucked. Like every single day. Fucking Erin ruined this for me. I wonder if she lied about the court case. She always knew about that shit, she would warn me if the press was coming or MTV was trying to make "Guns and Roses" look bad. That's when we're dating of course but the only reason why I believed her was because she was there the first time this happened and she knew that girl. They were fucking friends. Maybe I should call her and ask. Or make Izzy too do it at least.

"Hey Izzy." I semi shouted from my room, he came over to my room pretty quickly, "hey what's up man." He said leaning on my door frame, "could you do me a favor please." I said while coughing, I felt like total shit, I was not leaving my fucking bed, "as long as it's not getting you drugs." He said rubbing the back of his neck, I got a little bit ticked off but I still need this fucking favor, "can you call Erin for me." I said putting my head down, ashamed that I am even asking. "You're ex, why the hell would you want to do that." He exclaimed, "well I told you the story with me and her, what she made me do last week, I'm making sure she cleared my name."  I said getting a bit frustrated, " yeah of course." He said walking over to the phone in the living room, all I heard was him shout. "She wants to talk to you man." Fucking shit, I barely got up holding the wall, basically crawling to the phone, and falling onto the couch, and he handed me the phone,

𝐀𝐱𝐥: 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 .
𝐄𝐫𝐢𝐧: 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭?! ( 𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐬)
𝐀𝐱𝐥: 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐲.
𝐄𝐫𝐢𝐧: 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐱𝐥.
𝐄𝐫𝐢𝐧: 𝐢 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐮𝐩. (𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐬)
𝐀𝐱𝐥: 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐓 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓, 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍, 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇.
𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧: 𝐚𝐰𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐮𝐭𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐞
ᵃˣˡ ˢˡᵃᵐᵐⁱⁿᵍ ᵗʰᵉ ᵖʰᵒⁿᵉ
That fucking bitch, "Izzy, she fucking lied, about everything, she wanted me and Y/n to break up." I felt disgusting,lost, and most of all angry, she was such a cunt, she always knew how to get under my skin,I needed to get sober and talk to y/n, actually I don't even care, "I heard everything axl I'm sorry." Izzy said to me, "don't be, but one more favor, bring me to y/n house." I asked him in a polite tone, because I really needed to go, "you sure you want to go to her house like this." He said in a concerned tone, I was going to smack him I swear but he was just trying to be nice but I will hurt him, "I'm positive bring me to her fucking house Izzy."

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟏𝟒𝟓𝟎

𝐀/𝐧: disclaimer I don't hate Erin everly it's FICTION not real, it's all a story with my fucked up Imagination! Again I. Don't hate Erin, she is just a bad guy in my story😭