✮𝔦𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔬 𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔶✮

ᶜʰᵃᵖᵗᵉʳ ᵗʰⁱʳᵗʸ ᵗʰʳᵉᵉ

𝐀𝐱𝐥𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: I known I did a shitty thing but I didn't know how else to cope. I just lost the most important thing in my life. I felt incomplete. I was supposed to be a dad. This isn't fucking fair. I was barely functioning. All I knew was Izzy was here. I heard him but didn't answer. I knew I fucked up but I didn't want to live. I lost her. I knew y/n would either leave me or idk. I was in my head. I don't want her to leave me. I didn't want to lose my baby. This wasn't supposed to happen. None of it. I was grateful that Izzy came. I still felt lost. I felt like I had no purpose. I had nothing to live for. I lost my purpose. I felt like I lost everything. Did I fuck up? Yes. Was it for a good reason. Maybe. No. Yes. I don't fucking know.

Then fucking lighting struck. Y/n walked in. Her face went white. She lost the color in her cheeks. Her eyes went big. Her arms fell to her sides, her legs collapsed. She fell to the ground, I didn't think I looked that bad. Maybe I had cuts all over my wrists and arms, red dots on my arms, hair fucked up, I'm still sexy though.

"WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IZZY." Y/n shouted from the top of her lungs, I flinched at the loud sound, everything was so loud, when she screamed it felt like my ear just got fucked by a screwdriver, Izzy immediately stood up, and grabbed her leaving the room, I felt fucking terrible but I wanted to be alone, it felt nice, I reach over looking for my kit, fucking Izzy took it. God dammit.

𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: while I was sitting with axl. I lost track of time, I said I was going to go to y/n house in the morning. I fucked up, all I heard was y/n scream from behind me, I grabbed her making her leave the room so I could speak with her, "y/n please calm down." I say with my hands on her shoulders, "are you fucking kidding me, tell me what the fuck did axl do, and you didn't come this morning having me freaking the fuck out." She shouted in my face, trying to release from my grip, "he shoot up y/n, he tried to fucking kill himself." I spoke with my head down, she looked at me with anger, sadness, all the above, she ran to the room pushing me into the wall, I ran up behind her, I saw her shaking axl, oh fuck.

Axl was lying limp on the bed, he looked dead if I had to be honest. He face had little to no color in it, I was to stunned to speak, walk, I didn't know what to do, y/n ran to the phone most likely calling 911, I was still in the door way looking at him, I felt numb, I didn't know what to do, y/n was screaming, panicking, I didn't even hear her, I was in my own world, I couldn't even wrap my head around what was actually happening, I felt like I was having a nightmare, I didn't want to accept what was happening, then y/n came behind me, started shaking me but I still was just looking at axl stone cold, I had no emotion. She was screaming trying to pick up axl. But his dead weight was heavy, he was fully limp. I didn't even notice the paramedics busting down the door, pushing me out the way, I was now on the floor with my back against the wall, just watching the paramedics pulling him out, I couldn't even think straight, y/n ran with the people, he was on the stretcher. I felt lost.

𝐀𝐱𝐥𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: no one can hear me. No one can hear me screaming. I know I was unconscious but I still knew what was happening, I heard y/n screaming, it broke my heart. I didn't know why I couldn't speak, or move. I must've been in a coma. My eyes were half shut, I couldn't see anything really, it was burly, I felt everything though. Does this happen to everyone? I could feel y/n touch. I wanted to touch her hand back, I heard her crying, saying loads of sweet, heart breaking things. The paramedics started speaking. "Okay we're starting to lose this guy, I want to IV and protect the air ways." One of the men spoke, "get the crash car, we're losing this guy." They kept speaking, "give me an airway, please." All I could think. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!! I could my patience drifting away, then I felt a shock on my chest, "zap him again." I heard a deep voice speak, I felt my body jolt, "zap the son of a bitch again." He spoke again, every memory was going through my head. When me and y/n fought this one time.

"Listen to me, axl, are you listening to me?" She yelled at me. I walked away not wanting to deal with her, "no, don't walk away from me, you are such a fucking prick, I am so pissed with you." She screamed at the back of my head. I went to my room to get away from the yelling, "all I hear is bullshit, all the time, all you ever wanna do is, sex, sex, sex, I don't give a shit anymore." She said walking out of the house. "I love you." All I spoke.

I felt myself finally myself starting to wake up, I felt y/n hand on my check. But it shocked me, I flinched, then I fell right back down from exhaustion, my chest felt like it was on fire, I was burning. But I heard y/n scream "no" and some other shit. I was in pain, I tried grabbing my chest, I felt the raw skin, then he shoved something in my nose, making me shoot up immediately, I gasped grabbing my chest in shock, "thank fuck." Y/n had a sigh of relief, she laid a kiss on my lips, I didn't kiss back, I was still in shock, I thought I was dead. I didn't really know if everything that happened was real. Was it? Was it all fake? Maybe this was all a bad dream.

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟏𝟏𝟎𝟎

𝐀/𝐧 𝐢 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬, 𝐢 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐚 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬 :𝟑