✮𝔦𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔬 𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔶✮

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𝐘/𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐯: I'm on my way to axls place, I couldn't get out of my head the sight of Izzy sitting there covered in blood and a needle stuck in his arm, he has never done this before right.? But why did he have so much, and why did he say so much mean shit, he was such an asshole, I started to cry even more, and slash just looked over and laid his arm out for a hug, I gave in and laid onto his arm, "it's okay y/n , we all have our problems, and Izzy is tough on himself when your not around, always saying he isn't good enough for anything, so don't be mad at him, just be glad you found him." He says while trying to confront me, I just started crying louder, "slash , you didn't hear the shit he said, he brought up.." I took a pause , trying to hold it together "y/n it's fine, you don't have to tell me, we're almost there." He said leaving the hug, and putting both hands on the wheel, he pulls into axls driveway, and I saw axl opening the door , hearing slash's car he walks out just waiting for me to get out, I couldn't control myself, I ran into his arms just wanting him to hold me, and he did he just held me tight, I loved him so much he was the only person I wanted at this moment, "hey let's go inside okay." He says looking down at me, he thanked slash for driving, and waved to him, he walked me in, oh my god, there is was, sitting on the counter, it was the lady of the hour heroin, before tonight I only saw the drug when my mom had it and that one reason why I got so upset, my mother was a junkie, that's all she ever fucking was, we don't talk anymore, because everything we went through, she would sell my shit just for a hit, my guitars because I loved to play I still do, that's what me and Izzy had in common, but i would come home and everything of mine that had little or some value she would sell it, it made me so angry there was once when we got into it, I started to take boxing with my dad when he was not on steroids, and not being a dick. It would be nice, but the next day it was right back to zero, but I took the times I got to actually put the time in so every night I would practice and I eventually got really good at it, so that one day, she grabbed my fucking face and just yelled and try to hit me, I fucking punch the shit out of her, and left the house, that's when I ran away for the last time, I was with Izzy, and that's when we met axl. Then everyone else, I haven't been happier but now this, it brings me right back, "Hey you want anything to eat baby." Axl looked at me from the kitchen I sitting on the couch with my head in my hands, I looked up "I can't eat right now ax but thank you love." I said trying to get up "hey I'm sorry I wanted to tell you sooner-" sooner?! He fucking knew about this "axl you fucking knew about this and you didn't say a fucking word, my best friend is damn near killing himself and you just decide not to me." I shout quickly standing up and go up to him, he grabs my shoulders "y/n I didn't fucking tell you because I thought I had it under control." He said disappointed in himself "you fucking thought axl, how long have you known about this?!" I said leaving his grip on my shoulders "I have known for 6 years but he has been using for longer." He spoke my jaw dropped "AND YOU DIDNT FUCKING TELL ME, AXL WE MET WHEN I WAS 19 AND YOU HAVE KNOWN, I MET IZZY BEFORE YOU, and you didn't fucking tell me." I started breaking down at the last sentence I couldn't keep it together, he just hugged me "I'm sorry, he told me to never tell anyone, and I never broke my promise, I'm sorry I never told you, I thought he stopped using a while ago y/n I would've tried to stop it sooner." He held me while I cried, "why would he do this to himself, I can't go through this again axl, please do something maybe rehab anything, we have the money for it right." I uttered desperately "baby we need someone to play guitar, and I thought about it after this show maybe I don't know I need to figure it out," he presumed to me, "axl I will play fucking guitar, if that's what it takes to get my boy in rehab." I gave attitude when I spoke, "you know how to play.?" He questioned me , "yeah I use to play with Izzy a lot, and I still do time to time." I said half smiling, "baby you couldn't get hotter, but then yeah you should know how to play our shit we have been playing with one and another for a while, then let's go take him to rehab okay.?" He said laying a kiss on my forehead, I blushed somewhat, "well yeah when Izzy practices I play with him, but yes we will go right now." I remark still flustered by what he said, he covers me in kisses so happy that he can stop worrying about the band and can get help for his friend, "y/n get in the car honey, he says as he opens the door, I just walk into the car as he unlocks it, I sit in the passenger seat, I can't stop worrying about Izzy's well being I hope my baby is okay.

𝐀𝐱𝐥𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: all I can think about is that needle still, what the fuck is happening, I'm literally on my way to pick up my best friend to take him to rehab because of this shit, but I look over and I see my beautiful girl with black marks all over her face from crying I think it's her eyeliner and shit, I'm so upset she has to witness this event, at least she got there soon enough, he could've died if she didn't go, I'm still so happy went, but why would she lie about his phone, and the guitar, because that's utter bullshit, if anything he always would use slash's guitar anyway, but now y/n is playing tonight, I'm still stressed about that, she hasn't played with us before, you can watch someone play all day, but playing is a different story, and we put on a show, we aren't like other bands that just fucking sit there, I run around like a fucking animal, slash will be in the fucking air from jumping, I don't know if she is ready for that, but I need to ask about the fucking phone, it will eat away at me if I don't ask her, because I'm not being fucking lied to. "Y/n didn't you say Izzy's phone was broken." I ask with no emotion, she looked over worried, "uh about that, can we please talk after we get him into rehab I'll explain everything." She says giving my hand a squeeze, and a light smile "yeah of course." I say with a bit of angst to it, we finally arrived at Izzy's house, I just walked in because I knew he didn't locked his door since we have been there, he was now in his bedroom just staring at the celling, "hey did you get you're bags packed." I say with a light smile, he gave me a nod and pointed with his head over to his bags, "come on let's go okay." I say offering my hand, he got up and just stayed quiet, he was ashamed of himself, y/n got some of his bags, I got the rest, me and her put all the his bags into the trunk of my car, he sat in the back seat, and y/n went front seat, the we went to the closest rehab center there was, when we walked in we were greeted by the front desk lady "why hello Mr rose." Oh fuck sake of course she knows who I am. "Yes hello I would like for my friend here to be in rehab, and possibly what is the shortest time he can be in here." I asked Izzy looked at me with happiness knowing he won't be here long, since it hasn't been the first time, "oh well what is your drug of choice sweetheart." She asks Izzy, "heroin" I whispered to the lady, "oh okay well I shortest he could be here is a week for that and the longest can last up to 24 months." She said like it's ever going to happen, "a week it will be, how much is it gonna be." I ask wanting to get this over with, "around 56,000" she said with a big fucking smile, are you fucking kidding me, fuck this, "yeah no thank you, we will be leaving thank you for you're time." Y/n grabbed my arm looking into my eyes , wondering why the fuck I said no "Izzy I love you to death but I'll fucking treat you god damn it or I'll make y/n, you're living with me for the next month got it?" I said to him getting back in the car and driving back to my house, "why didn't you say yes axl." Y/n questioned me, "okay yeah let me just pull almost 60 grand out of my asshole, you think we make that much money off one album, the we release not even a year ago?" I say laughing, she just looked annoyed, "you know Izzy, you're going to axl rehab, you might want to jump off a bridge because of this but, I'll stay clean if you do, no alcohol, no drugs, nothing, alright." I say to him looking back, he just nodded his head still so upset with himself, it was a quiet drive we all didn't really talk, so we pulled into my driveway, and we got all of Izzy's shit, and kicked open the door since I had so much shit in my hands and I lead izzy into the spare room, because I want him to get better that's all I want that's all I ever wanted, and this shit is ending, am I staying sober, most likely not, but he can't play tonight, this shit lasts for almost ten fucking hours and the show is in two we don't have time for that "hey y/n get ready honey, we go on soon, you need to practice as much as you can" I shout from the other room, "she is replacing me axl?" Izzy questioned me with the most upsetting look in the word, "no Izzy, just tonight, I can't have you on stage tonight." I say with a numb face, because the fucking thing was Happening , I had no feeling, I was so upset so I just turned it off, he agreed with me I knew he did want to be on stage tonight, not like this. I walked out of the room letting Izzy sleep off this fucking shit if a day, I go into my room where y/n was, "hey hun, what are you gonna wear." I give her a sweet smile. "Axl Izzy tried to kiss me , that why I lied."    What. The. Fuck.

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