✮𝔦𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔬 𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔶✮

ᶜʰᵃᵖᵗᵉʳ ᵗʰⁱʳᵗʸ ᵗʷᵒ

𝐘/𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐯: I was in shambles. i just lost my baby girl. I was so happy to have a baby with axl. He was a wreck as well. He tried to put a brave face on. I knew him though. I was able to read him. He was easy to read. Especially now. I went home with Izzy I left my car at the hospital I'll get it tomorrow morning. But I thought axl was following us until he took a detour. I didn't think much of it, until we got back to my place, he wasn't there. It's okay. I was worried but maybe he was getting stuff from home. So I tried not to think about it, me and Izzy didn't talk much in the car. He was being sweet that's all that mattered. I loved being with my best friend. I felt comfortable with him, especially in this time, I would rather have axl but he was a wreck. I can't blame him either. He was more excited about the baby than me. I know he would've been the best fucking father too. I wanted him to be a dad. That's all he wants. That kid would be so fucking happy. She would have a love for music we know that. Maybe a little crazy. Just like her mom and dad. Fuck I wanted my baby girl.

When me and Izzy were back at my place. I stayed silent for a good minute just thinking about everything, "y/n are you okay." Izzy tapped my thigh, I nodded my head. I started to cry again. "Izzy this isn't fucking fair." I pleaded to him. He looked at me with sorrow in his eyes, he knew I wanted to do this. I was happy. He hasn't seen me this happy since me and axl first got together. I don't even know where our relationship is going to even go from here. I felt like this miscarriage was all my fault. I could only think of was when I drank, smoked. Everything. But I did it before I knew anything. I was already a month long.

"This shouldn't have happened. I'm sorry. Do you want me to call axl." Izzy leaned in for a hug, I grabbed his back tight, I nodded yes to his question, he got up to go phone him, he sat there while I heard the phone ring slightly, he put up the phone, "uh he didn't answer." Axl always answered. I started to worry, "do you want to see if he is home?" Izzy offered, he was the sweetest man I swear. "Would you?please." I begged, he smiled and nodded, he grabbed his keys, giving me a hug before he left.

𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: I was on my way to go to axls house, I felt fucking terrible for y/n, she was so excited about this baby, I was too. I wanted to be a cool uncle or some shit, I really felt even worst for axl. When I came into the hospital, he fell to his knees and screamed. I have never seen him like this. I know he is going to do something stupid. He always acted on emotions. Which he needs to work on. Because his emotions were always angry. He would honestly get scary when he is mad. It used to be worst. He would get physical. But y/n didn't know any of this. Axl didn't want her to know either. He didn't like people that he loved to know he was. He didn't want to look like a bad guy.

I was outside of axls house. In his driveway, his car was here, I walked to the front door, I knocked pretty fucking loud, then I turned the door knob just to check, it opened right up, "Hey axl, you home." I yelled across the house, I walked around, the place was a fucking mess, it looked like he just fucking threw shit everywhere, I walked into his room. He was strung out with a needle in his arm. He tried to overdose.

No, no, no.

I couldn't see him like this. He looked terrible. "Axl, wake the fuck up." He murmured, he must of just did it. I picked up the phone, i rang y/n to tell her everything was fine. I lied to her. She couldn't know that he did this. She would spiraled like he did.

𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲: 𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐢𝐦 𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐱𝐥𝐬, 𝐢𝐦 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭, 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭?
𝐘/𝐧: 𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡 𝐢𝐦 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲.
𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲: 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭, 𝐡𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰.
𝐘/𝐧: 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲, 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲, 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮
𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲: 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨𝐨.
ʰᵃⁿᵍˢ ᵘᵖ

I lied my ass off, I didn't know what else to do. I couldn't tell her, that her husband is strung out on fucking heroin. I'm just going to stay here till he wakes up, so I decided to stay in his room the whole night, I didnt even sleep, I just sat there. But he had a guitar here, so at-least I got to play a little bit, I sat on the end of the bed, I made sure he stayed on his side in case anything went wrong.

"Izzyyy, whatt- what are you do- doing here." I heard axl stuttered behind me, I looked back putting the guitar down. "Axl. Why the fuck would you do this man." I question, looking at him disappointingly. "I'm so- sorry." He started to have tears in his eyes. I knew he was going through so much shit. He was doing good. He was forced on music. Making his family. Then he does this shit. But then. Y/n walked in

𝐘/𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐯: I was home alone. All night. I was in my head, overthinking I did this whole pregnancy. All I could think about was if I fucked up with anything. When Izzy's called me, I felt more anxious why would he just bring axl here. I wanted him here. I wanted both of them here. But I barley could sleep. I must have stayed up all night either crying or tossing and turning. All I wanted was the man I loved. I just lost my baby fucking girl. I lost my child. I wanted fucking axl. So I decided that I was going to leave in the morning, I finally got like two hours sleep. I still felt tired, sick, lonely, all the above. It was 8:45 in the morning, I couldn't be home anymore, but then I fucking remember that I didn't have my fucking car. So I did the dumbest shit. I walked to the damn hospital. It took around two hours. I was happy to have my car back. It was a long fucking walk though. I looked like a fucking hot mess, I'm not going to tell the whole damn story about walking. I was sweating my ass off though.

When I got to my car. I drove right to axls. Speeding my ass off. When I got there I saw Izzy's car. I just came to the door, I had a key to axls house, so I just walked in, when I got to axls room.

I wish I didn't.

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟏𝟐𝟑𝟓

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐲/𝐧 𝐝𝐨?