✮𝔦𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔬 𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔶✮

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Time stamp: November 25th 12:45pm

𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲 𝐲/𝐧: I wonder why axl and y/n aren't awake yet, I thought we were going to talk about everything, I was actually looking forward to that, was the only reason why I fell asleep, I got up from bed to the bathroom to take a piss and find a shirt, I just looked in the mirror, I could see my ribs, I haven't ate something in days, I needed to take a shower, get this fucking blood off of me, I can't stand to look at myself, I decided to hop in the shower there was a bathroom in the room axl is letting me stay in, I couldn't be more grateful he is doing this from me, I'm just happy he doesn't have shitty shampoo and conditioner, and he had a bar of soap in the shower to so I was set, I washed off the blood off my arm, I already feel better but then I started looking all over my arm and seeing my veins dead, gone grey, I felt ashamed of myself that I let myself get this bad, I looked like a fucking zombie, I decided not to even bother trying to look at anything else that will make me upset, so I decided to wash my beautiful wonderful hair, yeah right,trying to find something I like in myself, I used to love my hair but now I can't even like it now, I just wished I was whatever axl was, he could get any girl he wanted, he didn't have any problems, what he got angry, at least he wasn't a drug addict, I just wanted to be happy. I was done washing my hair, and I grabbed a towel that was hanging around my waist , shit I didn't have any fucking boxers, let me just go ask axl for some, I walked out of the bathroom and knocked on his door since it was unlocked and I didn't hear anything, so they were probably still sleeping, ill just sneak in and just borrow some and tell him when he wakes up, I opened the door, I wish I never did, I saw my worst nightmare. My baby shoot up heroin. "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON" I shouted at them, when I saw my old kit sitting on axls bed with everything out, I finally felt at ease with myself knowing I would have withdraws later today, this wouldn't be the first time but fuck this shit is going to suck ass, I know I could make it all go away, I just let myself have one more hit, but no, I'm better than that, "WAKE THE FUCK UP YOU GUYS." I shouted once again, kicking the bed, making sure my towel didn't fall, I saw axl slowly get up rubbing his eyes, I saw his track mark I wanted to fucking slap him across the fucking face, he gives me this whole damn speech and then
Fucking does it a few hours later, what the fuck man, axl finally wake up a little bit, "heyyyy Izzy." He said with a glaze over his eyes I could tell he was coming out of it, he could at least form a sentence, y/n still didn't wake up, I'm started to worry, I knew she never did this shit before, and fucking axl got into her head, he could probably talk her into anything, I saw her move, thank fuck, "hmmm what's going on axl, oh hiiiii Izzy, ohh you look so smexyyy." Oh Jesus Christ, she was more than fucked up, "axl please fucking explained." I gritted between my teeth, " okay, well we kinda shoot up some of you're stash, only because we were fucking stressed about you, and everything I'm sorry Izzy, it will never happen again, it was a one time thing man, I was being fucking stupid." He started to get upset putting his head in hands, I couldn't blame him, I did it for the same reasons , so I could only sympathize with him, "axl I understand, it was my fucking stash" I say hitting his shoulder I continue "just don't bring y/n into this shit, you know she has a obsessive personality, well you know that." I smiled looking at him, I looked over to y/n she nodded out again, axl looked over and saw, he started to get upset with himself "hey let's go to the kitchen alright?" I say trying to lighten the mood, "could we?" He smiled back at me, "well let me put clothes on, make sure my dick doesn't fall out, that's actually why I came into your room, I needed some boxers." I laughed at the last part, " of course man" he laughed pointing over to his dresser as I walked over to his room, y/n was starting to wake up, she sat up and tried cleaning up all the shit they left out last night, she just looked at me while I got axls boxers, "hii Izzy I'm so fucking sorry." She said while getting up and going to come hug me, she basically fell into my arms "I love you Izzy, I read the note." My jaw dropped, that was meant for her to see, if I was fucking dead, and she saw it " you did y/n?" I said leaving our hug, "yeah , ever word, I feel so guilty that I didn't pick you Izzy." She stated , fuck , fuck, fuck. Now I feel like a fucking asshole, I wasn't supposed to fucking be here when she read that, "hey no, don't be let me get changed and we can talk okay." ALL I FUCKING WANT IS TO GET OUT IF THIS TOWEL, fuck sakes, but I couldn't act like I didn't love y/n telling me how much she loved me, and she looked beautiful, with her hair in a messy bun and pieces of her blonde streaks sticking out, and she had on a cropped black tank top, and her black things around her hips and her skull sweatpants, but axl was literally in the kitchen and that's his girl now, she is only my best friend . That's it,

she let me get changed and I just on axls boxers with a black long tank top, and walked out seeing axl and y/n sitting in the kitchen, axl took the kit from y/n and destroyed it all , I saw him breaking the needles, cutting the thick rubber band, it made me cringe at the sight, but I walked out and sat at the barstool axl had near the kitchen island, they both just looked at me in despair and lost, "I'm sorry Izzy" y/n started break down crying again, "y/n it's fine, I understand , you went through a lot last night, and I'm not going to judge you, I did the same thing many times, and you had the temptation sitting right in front of you, how could I judge if I'm the addict." I stated with a laugh at the end, trying to lighten the mood as much as I could, "I'm still sorry, you know, let's do something today huh?" Y/n suggested, that actually didn't sound bad, but fuck, we need to go to the store, I need shit with this withdrawal, this shit is going to last more than a few hours, this isn't me looking for another hit, I'm quitting forever, "well axl you know the drill, we need to go to the store.." I say putting my head down knowing this is going to be a pain in my ass for the rest of the week, "oh fuck, I forgot about the withdrawals." Axl stated "withdrawals?" Y/n looked at both of us very confused, "honey Izzy is going to get very sick for the next week and we will have to take care of him."  He explained, getting a bit upset since his emotions were still all over the place, "no Izzy, is that what mom went through." She said with tears falling down her cheeks, I nodded my head yes, leaving my head looking down, "what are you guys talking about." Axl asked, "you didn't tell him." She nodded no, she said for me to tell him, "axl, y/n mom was a heroin addict just like me, and that why they don't speak because..." I explained the whole story to axl, he just looked at y/n and gave her the biggest hug, and she fell limp into his arms, "well how about me and axl run to the store alright, y/n you should get some more sleep okay." I smiled while looking at her, he nodded, and she yawned walking over to axls bedroom, and me and axl grabbed his keys I grabbed my jeans from the other day, and some shoes and we went to the store, we were just sitting there, and then "so you know that day y/n and you hung out , a few days ago, did you try to kiss her.? Oh fuck.

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