✮𝔦𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔬 𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔶✮

ᶜʰᵃᵖᵗᵉʳ ᵗᵉⁿ

𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐯: this is fucking bullshit, I'm sitting here not even in my own house , and another fucking person is playing my songs my guitar lick, that I fucking made up, this is all utter bullshit, I was finally getting off my high, I'm still so ashamed of letting y/n seeing me in that state, I fucking said some shitty things and treating her like shit, I was just so upset, finally got up and went to the bathroom I started to break down looking at my arm covers in blood, I really wanted to die this time, I have always had suicidal thoughts and tendencies, this wasn't even a call for help, I wanted to fucking die, no one was supposed to find me, I just wanted to rot away but no I'm sitting being ashamed of what I became I'm just another fucking junkie who thinks they made it, but then I saw my forehead, it was y/n lipstick, I knew it was hers because it was a deep shade of a purply red, I loved when she wears this color she has worn it since Highschool, why did she kiss me? Did she just feel fucking sorry for me, god I hate this shit I'm always another person's problem, it was already one in the morning I should try to call y/n house phone, when I called it rang for a few times and no answer maybe she wasn't home yet, I'll call in a few hours maybe, I need to fucking eat something, I walk over to the kitchen, there it was, he forgot to hide it, don't fucking do this to yourself Izzy, it's not worth it, I had to sit there and stare at it for a good 25 minutes, "fuck this" I verbally said out loud, I walked back at the phone, and tried to call again, no answer, she is going to fucking answer, I put my head to the wall and called again

𝐘/𝐧: 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓, 𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐈𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓?!
𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲: 𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲.
𝐘/𝐧 𝐨𝐡 𝐢𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲, 𝐢𝐦 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐮𝐡 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲?
𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲: 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐧𝐨 𝐢 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐱𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐝𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐬
𝐘/𝐧: 𝐨𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐝, 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭, 𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲.
𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲: 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭, 𝐢𝐦 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞,
𝐘/𝐧: 𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞?
𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲: 𝐢 𝐰𝐨𝐧𝐭, 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐨𝐨𝐧.
ʰᵃⁿᵍˢ ᵘᵖ

the only reason why I haven't done it yet is because of her, i know she would be coming back, let me just go outside and wait for them.

𝐘/𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐯: "yes fuck me just like that axl" as axl pounded into me, we just got home all I wanted for him was to fuck me good and proper, not quick and fast not I want to make love I needed this, he knew what he was doing at the show, grinding against my ass with his dick hard a rock, "does that feel good you little whore huh?" He grunted with each shove into me, his words made me feel at total bliss, I start to clench around his member when he spoke I moan in response, when I was in this state I never could speak, "fuck baby you're going to make me cum shit." He panted this is the man I want to spend the rest of my life, he changed my life tonight, i don't know what it was the show changed everything he wasn't afraid to show everyone I was his and only his, he even kiss me on stage he never did that with any other girl on stage, he would have some beautiful girls, he would dance with them, I would get ridiculous jealous but he never kissed them, he kissed me, that's what made it different, and he hasn't been with anyone since we made it official, but before I knew it my phone was ringing, I could give two shits I'm with my man, he is the only thing on my mind, "who the fuck is that." He gets annoyed, but he quickly gets over it, and resumes destroying my insides, "fuck axl, you're going to make me uhh-" I couldn't even finish my sentence before he grabbed my throat and pushed himself onto the couch and letting me ride him, I knew he was close because he would have this desire to make me finish first and would do anything in his power to. "Come on baby, cum for me baby." The way he could degrade me one second and treat me like the only girl in the world, and I did as he said I ride his dick even harder, with every bounce my tits would go higher and higher, then axl gripped onto one of them and had his other hand on my hip pushes me down harder and harder, "axl I'm gonna cumm-" it drained out because I came all over axls member and the phone rang again right when axl was going to cum in me, that was my favorite fucking part, what did this prick want!? "Fucking don't listen to that baby, it's just me and you, come on feel this dick in your stomach huh?" The pushed me to the edge I went even faster and I could feel axls discharge enter into me, and he flipped me on my back and slammed himself into me, every last drop. The phone rang again. "Okay I'm getting this fucking phone." I yelled getting off of axl." I ran over to the phone and answered I yelled at the fucker on the phone, it was Izzy, oh shit, was he okay, he needs us, fucking axl forgot to hide the damn drugs, "who is it y/n" axl said getting up off the couch, "it was Izzy, axl" we need to go , NOW." I shout at the end, "woah, woah. What's going on." He said as I'm trying to put in clothes, "you forgot to hide the fucking drugs and Izzy was about to shoot up again." I said wanting to leave right away, "Okay okay let me find clothes and take my keys okay." He said trying to look for any clothes that were on the floor, I was already dressed and waiting for axl "come on ax, Jesus." I said getting impatient "maybe if my clothes weren't fucking everything we could've left." He said with a grin, he finally put his shoes on and took the keys from me, and started the car and drove as fast as possible, we were there even quicker due to the time, when we got there I jumped out of the car and all I saw was Izzy sitting on the porch with his head in his hands, "hey are you okay hun" I sit in front of Izzy putting my hands on his knees looking up at him from the ground, "I'm okay, just a bit upset, I want to apologize about you finding me earlier, I didn't want you to see me like that or even like this," he says starting to tear up as I see axl walk inside probably hiding the drugs somewhere safe hopefully, "Izzy please, I'm glad I found you, you wouldn't be here right now." I say to him wiping his tears and giving him a tight and loving hug, I loved Izzy, not in that way but I would always love and care about him, he was always there for me, and I was always there for him, I didn't even care anymore about what he said he was high and upset, about to lose his shit, I couldn't be mad at him, he just didn't let go of the hug, and I didn't want to let go, but I felt axl tap my shoulder, "hey um it's gone, can I talk to Izzy for a second." He said looking at Izzy, "yeah of course I'll be inside okay." I gave a cheeky smile.

𝐀𝐱𝐥𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: when we got to my house i was worried about Izzy, I know his tendencies are strong, and powerful over him, when I saw he was okay, I had a face a relief come over me, I couldn't be more grateful, when we got here, y/n ran to Izzy and talked to him for a little, I went inside so I could take care of the drugs and put them in my room, I'm still thinking about doing it, maybe y/n would do it with me? I don't know , I just want high I had once, I had no worries. But after I hide them I came back outside to see y/n and Izzy hugging each other, I can't get mad, even though he tried to kiss my girl, but I'm not supposed to know so I can't even say anything, but I tapped on y/n shoulder and told her we can go inside now, as we all sit on my black velvet cover couch, I sit besides y/n and Izzy sits next to me, "so are you doing better Izzy." I ask him he looks at me and nods "I can't even do it if I wanted to ax." He said getting up frustrated, I get up as well "what are you talking about?" I look at him confused "maybe because all my fucking veins dead, I had to almost cut my fucking arm in half to get it in my system." He said pulling his sleeve up and pointing to it like I'm fucking stupid, "okay I'm fucking sorry, you know I told me you fucking quit a while ago Izzy," I said starting to get annoyed, it's like he thought I didn't care. "AND YOU FUCKING BELIEVED ME, YOU TRUSTED A JUNKIE, BECAUSE APPARENTLY THATS ALL I AM RIGHT Y/N." He said looking straight at her, "YEAH I FUCKING BELIEVED YOU , YOURE MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND IZZY, I THOUGHT YOU WOULD TELL ME THE TRUTH, AND DONT FUCKING BRING HER INTO THIS." I say raising my voice at him I wanted to fucking slam his head into the wall for getting nasty towards y/n, "Izzy please calm the fuck down, or go back to sleep because we are both exhausted-" Izzy cut y/n off harshly "oh what exhausted from playing MY FUCKNG GIG IN MY FUCKING BAND." He started to shout at her "Izzy just fucking go to the room and sleep this shit off." I say pushing him away from y/n "Izzy this isn't you." Y/n says starting to tear up and trying to get closer to Izzy, "how would you fucking know, you didn't even know this shit has been going on since we ran away." He said rolling his eyes, she just couldn't take it and ran to my room, and slammed the door, "fuck Izzy, what's wrong, talk to me man." I say getting closer to him and lowering my tone, "axl you don't fucking get it do you." He said finally calming down, "what don't I get." I said looking at him concerned, "she fucking found me like that, I feel fucking pathetic axl, she was never supposed to find out, I was supposed to die today, I EVEN MADE FUCKING NOTES." He said starting to cry and threw papers at me. They were his suicide notes. "I didn't know it was this bad Izzy, I'm sorry, you know you can talk to me whenever man, you're my best friend man I can't lose you don't do this to yourself, I can't see you do this to yourself." I started to cry while speaking I love Izzy man I can't lose the person that helped me through fucking everything, he just looked at me, and hugged me so tight and didn't let go, "axl I'm sorry but I just feel so lost and overwhelmed, I just thought you wouldn't understand," he said softly letting go of the hug, "how about we call it a night okay Izzy, we can talk about everything in the morning so I can give you my full attention okay." I say to him with a smile, he gives me a nod and one last hug before walking over to his room for now, after I he left I walked over to my bedroom when I opened the door all I saw was y/n sitting on the floor crying, I immediately went over and grabbed her and held tightly, "hey hey it's okay, he told me everything, he isn't mad at you, he is mad at himself and-" she cut me off "I heard everything axl." She said to me still crying, "let me see my note axl." She says to me without even thinking, "honey I don't know-" I tried to say, "fucking give it to me." She snaps, I just nodded with my face still wet from my tears I can't believe I stilled cried in front of someone it's been years, I gave her the note, her face went white, what the fuck did he write?

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟐𝟐𝟏𝟎

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞?