✮𝔦𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔬 𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔶✮

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𝐈𝐳𝐳𝐲𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯: I just had the best time of my life. Me and y/n just made love. I thought this would never happen. Do I feel guilty. Extremely. But fucking aye. It was amazing I don't know if she is going to tell axl, I know if she does, he will either break up with her, which is most likely, never talk to me again. This was all her though. She came onto me. I should've said no. But I don't. I would've if I wasn't about to shoot up, that honestly got my mind off of it. But if I would tell axl that. He would say I'm bullshitting. Axl always hated liars. He wouldn't even be friends with them. That's why he hated the music industry. It was filled with pretentious pricks. They were always so egotistical. Thinking that they're always right. Lying about bands in the press.

Ps, we are those bands. I honestly don't know how I feel being in this situation. I liked being a rockstar, but this? It was getting too much, I liked being a local band that played at bars now and then. Our album is getting huge. Like fucking huge. We even got nominated for the MTV Awards, fucking crazy. I honestly don't know if I like all of this attention.

Me and y/n were still lying down. We were wide awake, just sitting there. Naked. "Fuck. I need to get back to the hospital, both of us are, we gotta go Izzy." She spoke, breaking the silence, she grabbed all her clothes off the ground, throwing me mine, I was still shocked after what happened, she was acting like nothing happened. I think she didn't want to believed what happened. She seemed like she had a good time. I know she loves axl. I wasn't hers.

I started to get dressed, I was dreading going to the hospital. I don't know what she would say. I don't know if I could look him in the eye. "Izzy let's go okay." She gave me a cheeky smile while speaking. I could tell she was uncomfortable. I was too, I couldn't lie. She was already in the car waiting for me. I was putting my shoes on, I don't want to go. But I still care about him. I need to know how he is doing. I hope I didn't fuck up that bad.

𝐘/𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐯: my mind was going a million miles per hour. I didn't know want to believe. This all felt like a nightmare. My supposed to be husband is in the fucking hospital because he overdosed or went into a coma for a few minutes, I don't fucking know, the doctors weren't telling me much, oh yeah, I also just fucked my best god damn friend.

WHAT!

I still can't wrap my head around that, it wasn't bad either. That's the thing. But I'm with axl. I just fucking cheated on him. I didn't mean too. It all happened so fast. I know I can't tell him. I barely can look Izzy in the eye, I can't blame him for not stopping either, he has always had a thing for me. This was probably a dream of his. I can't lie that I haven't wanted to do this with him. I really wanted to try it out, when I was single of course. Yeah that didn't go as planned. Fuck.

I don't think I am going to tell axl. I don't think I can to be honest. If I did he would leave me, I didn't want that. I still love him with every bone in my body, i felt so dirty. I felt ashamed in myself. I know what I did was wrong. That was the worst part. What the fuck did I just do.

Izzy and I were on our way to the hospital, I needed to go. I said I was after I got Izzy. It had to be an hour maybe two. The car ride was filled with silence, we didn't speak, didn't look at each other, nothing. We always talked in the car, I hated when the car was silent if made the mood seem so fucking off, especially in this situation.

It felt like it took years to get to the hospital, catching every red light. Every single one. But when we got there I basically ran to axls room. My poor baby. He was turned on his side just sleeping. The nurses told me that he would be here for a few days. Which I know he would be in hell over. "Hey handsome." I spoke, axl slowly started to turn over, since I patted his shoulder, Izzy was behind me, I felt him starting behind, "hi beautiful, what took so long?" He murmured, opening his eyes, rubbing them hard, his eye went a little wonky before he focused them on me, "I was just getting Izzy and lost track of time, how's everything going?" I looked at his with guilt in my eyes, as I just lied to my husband, "well I'm sitting in this hospital on suicide watch, I'm fan-fucking-tastic." He smiled in a sarcastic way, I smiled at his remark. "You'll be out of here soon hun, I'll be here for the rest of the time, I'll get clothes and you're shit too okay." I gave him a cheeky smile, then Izzy spoke up.

"I'll go get your guys stuff okay." He said quickly, grabbing my keys and leaving before we could answer, "is he alright?" Axl looked at me confused, I was too, but I knew why he was uncomfortable, "I don't know, he was fucked up from everything today." I remarked in a disappointed tone, I felt bad that I kept lying, but I can't lose this man. He was the only thing I really had left. I just lost my fucking child, I know I just lost my best friend, I know I'm going to lose axl if he ever finds out. I honestly will end my life if this happens.

"I can't wait till we get home baby, I want to show you why I did what I did, I want to tell you everything. I want you to understand I'm not selfish, what I did was. Not me. Let me show you how much you mean to me y/n." Axl pleaded to me, holding my hands, I wanted to cry. I felt even more guilty. I just grabbed his face, and made him look me straight into my eyes, I let my nose touch his. He looked deeply into my eyes, they were bright green, they were shining, since they were a bit teary, I felt like a terrible person, I wanted to tell him everything. But he would leave me. Axl always react on emotions. He would either get violent or aggressive. So basically just mad. I have seen what he has done to people.

It wasn't pretty.

If someone even looked at him wrong, he would fuck them up. I honestly would get scared when he was like this. And take a wild guess who was able to calm him down.

Izzy.

It was always him. He was the only person that understood his anger, the only person that could talk to him in that state. I couldn't even talk to him, forget looking at him, I wish I could, Izzy had his ways with him, probably because of the time and history they have. They met before I met axl, he knew him for a few more years. I knew axl well but I knew Izzy better. Might sound stupid but it makes sense.

"When can I go home baby." I wanted to cry when axl spoke, my baby didn't want to be here. "Soon ax soon." I tried to convince him. Even though knew it would be days before he would be able to leave. He leaned in for a hug, I laid with him in the hospital bed. God I loved him.

I fucked up.

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