Shadows of desire : SVT✅

(62) Is it Wrong ?

Yuri stood on the terrace, her arms wrapped around herself as she gazed at the empty, starless sky. There was no moon tonight, just an endless, dark void above her. The night air was cool, but it did nothing to calm the storm of thoughts swirling in her mind.

All the words Saemi had said to her earlier in the day kept repeating in her head, playing like a broken record she couldn't switch off. Every sharp comment, every allegations, every doubt that was planted-it all began to gnaw at her. Her overthinking only made it worse.

Was she really good enough?

Did she truly belong here with them?

The weight of Saemi's words felt heavier now, amplified by the silence and the loneliness of the night. Yuri closed her eyes, trying to block it all out, but it was futile. The voices in her head were louder, and the more she tried to push them away, the more persistent they became.

She sighed, leaning her hands against the terrace railing, feeling small and vulnerable. She had been happy, so happy with her newfound friendships, but now... doubt crept in like a shadow, clouding the joy she had felt.

Would things change? Was she really someone worth keeping around, or was it all just an illusion?

Yuri stood there, lost in a whirlwind of emotions, her mind racing with confusion and doubt. She felt the familiar flutter in her heart when she thought of each of them-Mingyu's teasing smirks, Dino's flirty energy, Minghao's quiet thoughtful gestures, Hoshi's bright and possesive side, Jeonghan's soft reassuring words, Joshua's kind and comforting presence... and then there was Jun. She didn't even know what to think about him.

Her heart beat faster with every name, and that only made the thoughts more tangled. How could she like all of them? Was it even possible? Was it wrong? Her breath hitched as fear gripped her.

What if they found out?

What if they knew that she didn't just like one of them, but all of them? Would they be disgusted by her? Would they reject her, call her names like Saemi had done? The cruel words echoed in her mind.

Whore... asking for 13 men all herself.

The thought shattered her. Yuri's knees gave out as she crumbled to the ground, sobs shaking her small frame. Tears fell freely, her chest tightening with the weight of her feelings. She wasn't asking for too much, was she? She wasn't disgusting... was she?

She buried her face in her hands, overwhelmed by the guilt and fear that consumed her. The thought of losing them, of being seen as something vile in their eyes, broke her in ways she hadn't expected. All she wanted was to be loved, but now it felt like she was asking for something impossible, something wrong.

The night was quiet, but inside her, the storm raged on. Yuri gasped softly as she felt herself being lifted off the ground. She looked up and met a soft, warm smile that sent butterflies through her stomach. It was Jeonghan. His gentle but firm grip cradled her as he carried her effortlessly to his room. He didn't say anything at first, just walked quietly, giving her time to gather herself.

When they reached his room, he set her down gently on the edge of the bed and knelt in front of her, his eyes searching hers with concern. Yuri tried to calm her racing heart, but being so close to him only made it beat faster.

Jeonghan reached up, brushing a strand of her hair behind her ear, his touch delicate yet grounding. "Is what Saemi said bothering you that much?" His voice was soft, soothing, but he didn't push for an answer.

Yuri hesitated, her emotions still raw. She didn't want to tell him everything, not yet. "No... I'm okay," she said, forcing a smile, but it didn't reach her eyes.