Something In The Orange

Listen to: Heaven- Julia Michaels

Chapter Sixteen.

I just got back to the dorm, definitely cross-faded a little bit, but not enough to not remember anything tomorrow. I was taking a steaming hot shower, trying to get the smell of smoke and alcohol off of my body.

I closed my eyes, letting the hot water hit my skin, but all I could think about was him. His eyes, his tattoos, his smile, the way his lips were so close to mine... But....

I left him at the party with the other girl.

But I'm starting to think I was wrong.

Shaking away my thoughts, I finished my shower, putting on some lounge shorts and an oversized t-shirt, going back to my room and lying down. Zoey was staying with Declan, so I had to room all to myself.
Usually, I'd love that... but tonight, tonight I don't. I kept replaying what Zoey said to me at the party and she was so right. So let's prove it.

Me: Are you still at the party?

I laid my phone on my chest, feeling my heart race.

Sage: just made it back on campus

My heart was pounding. I couldn't really do this. Could I? There's no way. I have no idea what I'm doing.

Sage: want me to come over?

I hesitated. Typing and then deleting my message. Then I once again reminded myself, this was my idea. I need to just do it.

Me: yes. I mean, if you want to.

Sage: be there in a min

I quickly stood up, spraying some perfume onto my wrist, running my fingers through my wet hair.

Shit. This is happening.

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There was slight knock at the door, before it slowly opened and in walked Sage.

My body instantly felt drained. I was weak, heart racing, sweating, shaking.. you name it, my body was doing it. My mouth felt dry. "Hey P," he whispered, making sure not to be caught by anyone outside. "Hi," I smiled slightly. He closed the door, walking over to my bed. I moved over to the side closest to the wall, giving him space to sit or lay down. I sat up, resting my back against the wall, facing him.

"I figured you'd be-" I paused. "Busy." He shrugged. "You wanted me here, I'm here. I'm never too busy for you." I smiled, looking down and starting to play with my fingers. I'm So nervous.

He grabbed my hands, causing me to look at him. "But why am I here?" He raised his brow.

Like he doesn't know.

"I, I um-" I kept stuttering. He laughed at me and it just pissed me off. "What?" I snapped. "You have no idea why you asked me to come over." I shook my head, "no, it's just-" I started to protest, but eventually gave up. "Lesson one: never be afraid to tell me what you want," he smirked.

I couldn't even move. His gaze kept me captive. He leaned in, beside my ear, "so, what do you want?" He whispered. Chills went through my body. My breathing getting heavier at his closeness. "Kiss me," I whispered so low, it sounded more like a breath. He pulled back, eyes staring into mine. "Show me where," he instructed. I swallowed hard.

I moved my wet hair behind my shoulder, revealing my neck with the hickey he previously left. I angled my head back, exposing more of my neck. "Here," I whispered. A smirk played on his lips as he leaned in, kissing me right at my collarbone, before moving up closer to my jawline. My head fell back, against the wall, a small moan escaping my lips.

What the hell sound did I just make.

I guess he could tell it surprised me, he pulled back looking at me, "it's okay." He reassured. I nodded. I know it's normal, I've just never done it before. "Talk to me, tell me everything you're thinking," he said. "I want you to Kiss me," I said, my voice shaky. "All over." His eyes slightly widened, unsure of my response.

I was surprised with myself. But in this moment I wanted nothing more than to feel his lips all over my body. Maybe that's too soon, but I do not care. I'm tired of being so innocent. I want this. I crave this.

"Peyton-" he started but is stopped him, scooting back and laying down. "Please?" His eyes lowered, looking my whole body over, before biting his lower lip. He crawled on top of me, his body towering over my own. "If you want me to stop, all you have to do is say so," he said.. I rolled my eyes, "shut up and kiss me." I wrapped my hand around his neck, pulling him down to me, his lips landing on mine.

I swear to god the whole room went up in flames.

His lips tasted so sweet. I couldn't get enough. He broke our kiss, kissing down my neck, his fingertips sliding under the hem of my t-shirt. He looked up at me and I nodded, letting him take the shirt off. His eyes trailed over my now exposed body. He kissed down my chest, stomach, and to the line of my shorts.

I looked down at him, hesitating.

Do I really want this?

"I really think you'd enjoy it, if you want it," he said, looking up at me.

Oh god.

"Okay, yes," I let out a breath. He slowly took off my shorts and my whole body went still. I was afraid to move. That's when I felt his cold breath, and then his lips... I couldn't help myself and the moans that escaped. Before I could let another one out, his hand covered my mouth, silencing me.

I was definitely being loud.

Oops.

My back arched so far, I wasn't even touching the mattress anymore.

Lesson one: complete.