The shadowed prophecy

Chapter 42: Owls

It was now less than a week till my first owl exam and I'm still trying my hardest but with my nightmares and my friends still not understanding fully what happened as I hadn't told them what he did to me and the lies he told them it didn't matter until I finished my exams as I wouldn't be spending so much time with them anyways.

"So el it's only 2 days till your first owl of your exams are you prepared for it?" Snape asked and I wasn't quite sure.

"I don't know I guess we'll find out after the exams if I passed. It feels like my brain might explode with all the information and with how close they all are. 2 a day, I'd say it's stupid and uncalled for." I respond and he smiles at how frustrated I am. He pulls my face up by my chin with his hand and kisses me like he knew what I needed. I let him take over me and take me into his bedroom as he places me onto the bed I could feel his hardness against me. It gains a moan from me. The way he touches me makes my core feel so wet and asking for it all. As the clothes come off he teases me a little I beg him for more and he doesn't go much faster and it makes me want to take over and fuck him so hard and relieve myself from the pleasuring torture he so desires to do to me and I think he is still cautious about the Draco matter and I've slowly stopped having nightmares about it and my friends weren't great for ignoring me but when they figured out that Draco was no longer in school the following Monday they asked there questions but I wasn't ready to answer those questions. I slowly but surely shared what happened with them and they were accepting and I had moved back into my dorm after 4 days of sleeping In Severus's bedroom.

The next 2 days where like a blur of studying and using drugs and alcohol it was almost not real. With my first exam starting in a few minutes I walked to Dumbledores office to start it and got ready with all I needed. It was crazy that I was actually going to be doing my owls 7-8 months before everyone else in my year and finishing a good year before them.

The first exam had been quite easy and with the second one later that day it felt like the easiest one to get through. All that studying felt like it was easy to put onto the paper and I was actually doing well for myself and be on track to finish in a year and a half. My friends have become my second priority which is mostly Dracos fault in the start but I was now not focusing on them really as id mostly be studying anyways and I didn't want them to think that I didn't have my full attention. Throughout these weeks I've also been working on my shapeshifting and getting down further and being able to fully transform into the animals and cross transform multiple animals too.

With all 7 of my owls done in the past week and a half I could relax and not think about studying about things I don't even remember anymore. There was now only 3 more days till I could get my results and I was told I could take those days off but I wanted to think about it before committing to stop doing work till next week. It was the start of November and the decorations were put up on the last week on the month so it'll be nice to feel like Christmas. with the family staying here for Christmas it would be nice to not have much else to do other than focus on my family and not worry about my friends being in trouble. I end up sitting in my classroom the rest of the day not going to eat in the great hall as my focus was relaxing and getting high and drunk and forgetting everything I'm responsible for. It felt like it was a fantasy doing this much and drinking what I was drinking. I hadn't realised I had fallen asleep last night till I was awake on the sofa the next morning and looking at the time it was almost midday and I have little recollection of how much I did and what had happened, although it was a mess in here there was some blood on the floor and I started panicking and I quickly got up and checked myself in the mirror in the room and saw that there was a large gash on my left calf and one across my stomach too. I wondered what had happened for me to get these kind of scars to bleed and how I was still even alive at this point. then it clicked, I was able to regenerate blood faster than everyone else because of the shapeshifting, that reminded me that I had changed into an extremely large wolf and glass had hit me scattering everywhere and I looked on the floor and the glass was everywhere on the floor infant of me.

I quickly cleaned the mess that I had made and changed my clothes. I was rather hungry by the time I had finished and headed to the great hall to get lunch. I hadn't seen anyone for at least 24 hours when walked in and everyone had looked at me kind of glad I was alive and well. I had made sure to get some drug in me before arriving which helped the ease of everyone staring at me. I walked over to my house table and sat at the edge on the table near the doors and waited for the food which was in front of us soon enough. With eyes on me I felt a little uncomfortable eating a lot so I ended up grabbing a few things from the table eating most of it and what I hadn't finished I took with me back to my classroom so no one could disturb me.

After chilling in the classroom for a while I wanted to get out so I decided to go walk down to the lake and smoke some weed. I was thankful when I arrived no one was there since it was a Wednesday no one was out with the classes. I had finished smoking when I felt a creep going through my spine and I wondered what it would be this time.

I started seeing the battle field with Harry and the dark lord wands in hand and light coming from both wands and so many other fight and struggling to gain satisfaction from the win. Then clocks and dates showing up 2pm.... 31st..... spring..... M.... March. Years.... 2.... 3..... Fallen bodies none that I knew of probably the dark lords army. Pain... instant pain from who knows and darkness. This is what would happen if I don't get better and start fighting and it scared me but I just wanted to do what wanted for a bit longer. Then the lake. It was there right in front of me, I pinched myself to see if it was real and it was and I eased up a bit still thinking about the information that I've just gotten. I lay there for hours and I'm brought back to reality by someone's touch and I flinch not sure who it might be but I see his face. The concern on his face and then the relief that I'm okay he smiles at me and helps me up.