I wake up and there's sun shining through my window not sure what time it was. I look at my clock on the bedside table and see that it's 8:45 in the morning. I sit up and my head is pounding and im not sure why as I have no recollection of anything, I also head to the bathroom as I was desperate and as I finish my business I wash my hands realizing blood was in the sink and everywhere else in the bathroom. I start panicking not sure what to do so I scream and cry for 5 minutes before I hear loud knocks on my bedroom door.
wait I locked my door but when did that happen. how long have I been in my room for, how much drugs did I take? I question and walk to my door realizing how messy my room was from whatever happened. I reach the door and wanted to unlock it but who was I going to see on the other side.
"who is it?" I ask still sniffing from the crying.
"its me." Severus says from the other side of the door "are you okay? you screamed again but I still can't open your door." he says and he said I screamed again.
"did you just say scream again? how long have I been in here for?" I ask him as I open the door slightly to see him and he doesn't look great.
"you've been in there for 3 days with the door locked not talking to us but you've been screaming." he says and I see that he's not doing good with that information as he wants to protect me. tears start coming down my cheeks but I fight them off and I tell him.
"can I clean myself up before I let you in." he hesitates and looks behind him and sighs.
"can I make sure you actually clean yourself up and help you try remember anything from my end." he asks and I contemplate while looking at the state of my room not sure if I should let him.
"umm I don't know. its kind of a mess in here." I say and he smiles at me.
"you know its okay el im not one to judge you and you know that. please just let me help you clean up anything." he says calmly and it kind of helps to let him in the room so I open the door wider and he slides in and looks around the room kind of shocked by how it looks. "I mean there's gotta be worse right." he tries to joke.
"this isn't the worst though." I say grabbing his hand and dragging him into the bathroom so he could see the blood everywhere. his face drops completely and looks right at me so caring and wanting to know if im okay. "I have no idea if im injured, I haven't checked and if I was I can't physically tell as there's no pain just a headache." I say and he comes over and hugs me tightly but not very tight in case I was actually injured. "I should probably make sure that my body is fine so I'll just strip if thats alright?" I ask and he nods.
"I mean of course it I literally stopped you 3 days ago remember." he says with a small smile on his face. I remember that vividly I just don't remember much after dinner and thats where it started. I start taking of my jumper I was wearing and then my top and my jeans and underwear. so far everything seems to be fine till I look in the mirror and look at my back and the scars where my collar bones are there's blood stained all down my back. I look back at Severus and almost stat crying because of how bad it looks. "wow, that looks bad. all this blood from that, I wonder what happened?" he wondered and I was asking the same thing. I had an idea and I didn't want to do it while it was such a mess.
"um I have an idea of who I could talk to about this but I wanna clean this place and myself up first if that okay." I say and he nods. "could you start in here while I shower and stay in here till I finish?" I ask im and he smiles at me.
"yes of course peach, anything for you. ill always be here for you okay." he says bringing me in for a hug. when he releases me I turn on the shower and try get off the blood, I needed help from Severus to make sure it was all gone which im thankful that he was here to help me clean up otherwise I wouldn't know what id do.
"its a Tuesday why aren't you teaching?" I asked him as we were cleaning up my clothes from the floor. it wasn't hard with magic but we still needed to pick out the bloody ones and dirty ones out to clean.
"well my focus was you and waiting for you to come out of your room. it was hard though. you know waiting, hearing your screams and you not answering the knocking. what even happened anyways why did you just not answer." he says wondering what I wondered. but I knew that was upset and angry at life and my friends.
"I guess there was a few reasons why it happened but when it was happening I have no recollection of what was going on." I tell him and we sit down on the bed since we finished cleaning up. "I should probably call my gran up now that we've cleaned up, shell know what happened." I say and she's there almost instantly.
"oh my goodness child are you okay? do you remember anything that happened, if you don't I can tell you." she says concerned.
"thats why your here because I don't remember anything further than smoking weed just before blacking out." I explain and she starts to tell us what had happened and what she told us the things that happened and what she got from my mind that seemed to be racing all these days.
she started off with Saturday night being quite a calm and harmless with the drugs but I had taken a lot which is most likely what caused my blackout in the first place. she then went on to say that I started seizing up and had a vision of the war which caused me to continue taking drugs. the details of the war was too gruesome for her to repeat so she kept it short by telling me that all my loved ones were sacrificed and my parents were the ones to enforce the pain in order of Voldemort, this lead to anger and rage going through me while on the drugs and I went into the bathroom and my wings were summoned and I tried to rip them out, which was the reason for the blood, as I sobbed and screamed. when it didn't work I sat on the floor of the bathroom and cried for hours and hours with screams every now and again. after a few hours sleep on the floor I got up and and went through my wardrobe drinking and doing more drugs throwing clothes everywhere and put on what I wore before the shower. I then went into the bathroom and saw all the blood and tried cleaning parts of it with some of my clothes clearly delusional and not thinking straight and then stopped because I knew how stupid I looked clean with my clothes and bought them back into my room. she continued to explain how I was hit with another vision of Voldemort walking into Severus' place with Lucius and bellatrix to come and attack us but failed and she said that would be the reason for his anger towards killing my loved ones, but I wondered why he was trying to single me out from everyone else but remembering my power and how the dark lord would have found out. she ended it by saying I need to leave here and find a better place for hiding if I wanted to change the future of what's possibly going to happen. with that she needed to go and when she was gone I sat there unsure of what to do next with myself.
Severus pulls me into a hug and we sit there for a little while before there's a knock on the door. I wondered who could be at the door so I let them in.
"who is it?" I ask
"its your only sister. can I come in?" rose says and I smile and let her in. "how are you feeling el? any better than the last few days?" she asks and I go over and hug her reassuring her.
"im okay rose, im ready to come out now. how have you been, have you done your school work?" I say
"yes ive been doing my work and he's actually helped me. we also made some cupcakes, triple chocolate your favorite." she says and I smile at the fact she made them and with Snape's help.
"well im glad your getting along. im hungry so I should probably come down grab a little something." I say and we all go downstairs. Atticus and raven are in the living room watching the tv and when we walk into the room they look our way and smile running over and hugging me tightly. "wow okay I didn't think you'd miss me that much." I say to them and they giggle.
"of course we missed you and we missed your cooking too. they don't make up for your standards except for those cupcakes they are very tasty you should try one." raven says and we head into the kitchen and get myself some toast and they sit at the small breakfast table chatting away as I join in a little while I made myself some toast.
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The shadowed prophecy
Fanfiction15 year old El finding her place at hogwarts with her 7 friends, with a troubled background that has shaped her into a motherly figure to her younger siblings. She also used drugs and alcohol to help cope with life. This is driven from her addict pa...
