The end of the school year was coming closer with every day. It was the first time that I was scared of that thought because I realised that Sarah and I would not know each other anymore once we got our report cards. Siren helped me out quite a bit even though all my efforts were wasted on Alexy.
We did not talk anymore. I never saw her around Louis either. He probably was not too excited that Alexy quitted our team after all the training we did together. Louis was not too happy with me either because I snapped at him the other day, when he got into a fight with Tristan and Nikola but there was one aspect that just made the difference for him. I was getting really good at Seeker. Initially Louis was our strongest member but as time passed by, I took over, even though I was forced to play minor roles like fighters.
Sure, he wanted to know how I got so good all of a sudden but I just could not tell him the truth. Siren insisted that I would not tell anymore about the fact that she was teaching me. Of course I understood where she was coming from but still, wasn't that a bit much? Nobody ever said a word about Sarah being bad at Seeker. Well, it was not as though I could argue with her anyways.
Sometimes I thought that Sarah might have taken that whole undercover act a little too serious. Everyone already thought that she was weird because she always got late to school, wore that bizarre perfume and preferred to be a loner. Honestly, what did Christian even see in her?!
She was just a pitiful loner. A mistake nobody could erase and yet I was not exactly any better than Christian. Why else did I stop when I saw her in the corridor, despite having to be in class myself? Why else did I approach her, even when she was not facing me?
I felt as though Sarah never really looked me in the eyes and now she was even sitting down on the floor with her back pressed against the cold white wall.
"What are you doing?", I asked as I kneeled down right in front of her, hoping she would look at me but it was a meaningless act.
"Counting the floor tiles.", she answered.
"How many have you counted so far?"
"36"
"Really? So many already? Can I count with you?"
Sarah nodded. She pointed at the floor tile she counted last and thus we began counting the floor tiles quietly together until we had counted every last one that we could see from our position. Sarah seemed rather please with herself once she had counted every floor tile. Finally she was in a mindset where I could actually talk to her.
"Why are you sitting out here? Shouldn't you be in class."
"I am. The teacher is in the other classroom telling everyone their marks. I'm next."
"Are you worried?"
"A little. If I manage to get a D, I pass. I won't have to repeat the year."
Her gaze was distant and disturbing. I understood that all of this must have been rather bothersome and stressful for her but was she not beating herself up over this? I bet she was already digging her own grave.
"It's alright. I'm sure you'll pass. You worked hard, didn't you?"
"But-"
"It's your turn.", a poisonous voice suddenly interrupted Sarah. It was Alexy. Out of all the people in this world, why did it have to be Alexy who saw us like this? Since the day we broke up, we began keeping our distance. It was better this way.
Alexy did not instantly leave the hallway. To be perfectly honest, she stayed until Sarah went into the classroom. One she made sure that we were all alone, she began to speak.
"Hey Tyson."
"Hey."
"It's been a while, hasn't it?"
"I guess."
"So... how are you doing?"
"Fine."
"I see. That's good. I've been thinking about you."
Again she was running her running her foul mouth, hoping I would show an opening but I had learned from my mistakes. Her body and her soul should have no meaning to me. I admit, I had thought about her as well but I could not say that. I could not admit that our time together was still special to me. I could not admit that perhaps I still loved her just a little.
Deep inside of me was still this burning desire that made me reach for her. My heart broke into a million pieces because I tried to suffocate it. She lied to me. She never actually loved me. I did not want to believe it but it was the truth. She was the one that betrayed me. I should never give her a second chance. No matter how gorgeous her brown eyes were and no matter how warm her skin felt, whenever we touched. It did not matter to me how angelic her voice sounded or how much I adored her dimples. All of this was meaningless.
"Tyson... I made a mistake. Won't you forgive me just this once? Just one more chance is all I need. I can change."
"Alexy, I-"
"Please Tyson! I love you with all my heart. You're the only one for me! Whatever you want, I'll give it to you and I'll never lie again."
"Alexy..."
What was I doing? Why was I getting nervous again? I should not feel this way. I should not want to believe that she was telling the truth. I should not fall for her all over again but I ran out of every reason. The way her eyes looked into mine adoringly made me weak. I began biting my tongue because I needed to suppress my emotions.
"Tyson please! I-"
"Just shut your damn fucking mouth already. Once a liar, always a liar. Those are the rules darling."
I had not even realised that Siren was back already. She stood right behind Alexy, bored and emotionless as usual. I was surprised when I heard her cold voice. It sent a shiver down my spine.
"What do you want, freak?", Alexy stood up to Sarah. Their faces were just inches apart but even though Alexy was taller than Siren, it seemed as though Siren was looking down on her.
"Isn't it obvious? Stop your fucking mind games for once."
"How dare you-" Alexy raised her hand and I was sure that she was going to beat Siren up but I had forgotten that this was not as easy as it seemed. It did not even take Siren a second to grab Alexy's wrist rather harshly. At the very least Alexy seemed to be in a lot of pain. She begged Siren to let go but Siren did not listen until Alexy promised that she would stay away from me.
Without even looking back Alexy ran into the classroom, where the other students were waiting. It did not seem as though she was planning on telling the teachers for now, which was odd until I realised that I had not even tried to stop Siren. If Alexy were to tell the teachers anything, I would be on Sarah's side and Alexy was aware of that.
"Now to you.", Siren snapped at me.
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Teen Romance Fantasy
Романтика//TW: addiction - eating disorder - bullying\\ "You must think I'm a bother to you, right?" "What really bothers me right now is the fact that we're still talking and not using our mouths for something more convenient." "Don't lie to me. I made you...