Fracture

CHAPTER FIFTY

*TW: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SEXUAL ASSAULT*

❊-♡︎Scarlett♡︎-❊

I was exhausted. I had stayed up practically all night speaking to the Gard's and had finally gone to bed at half four in the morning.

Only to be woken up at nine to speak to more Gard's.

When the last detective finally left, I felt utterly helpless.

The cat was out of the bag. Everyone knew what Mark had done to me.

I was sat in the kitchen with a mug of tea in my hands and my mam sitting across from me. I had sent Patrick home at half one in the morning and hadn't spoken to him since.

I didn't have the energy, and I wanted to be alone.

Or with Gerard.

He had left the kitchen the second the Gard's left with Johnny by his side.

"Can I get you anything?" Mam gave me a weak smile.

"No," I frowned, "I'm going to go talk to Ger."

She nodded and I headed upstairs. I gently knocked on Gerard's bedroom door and he called out, "Yeah?"

"It's me," I said as I pushed open the door.

Johnny and Gerard were both seated on his bed, looking less than one hundred percent.

"Do you guys want to talk?" Johnny asked, looking between the two of us.

"Yeah," I forced a smile.

"Alright," He nodded, getting up from the bed, "I'll be downstairs."

Johnny paused in the doorway and pulled me into a hug.

"I'm proud of you," He said quietly.

"Thanks," I replied, his grasp on me loosening.

He gave me a small smile before exiting the room and closing the door behind him.

I was immediately across the room, wrapping my arms around my brother.

"I'm so sorry," My voice cracked.

"I'm sorry. I'm your big brother, I'm supposed to protect you," I could hear the sadness in his voice as he spoke.

"Don't you dare," I shook my head, "I will not let you blame yourself. You've kept my head above water for my entire life."

It was true. Gerard was my lifeline, even when he didn't know it. He kept me from digging the blade deeper.

"I wish I knew," His voice broke, "I would've killed him."

"And I would've killed him for you," I hugged him tighter, "I love you, Ger. We will get through this together."

"I love you," He sniffled.

And we both broke into sobs.
Crying until we couldn't anymore.

Pulling back from our hug, I settled next to him on his bed and rested my head on his shoulder.

"I'm so glad I have you," I whispered.

"You'll always have me. No matter what," He agreed.

A knock and Johnnys voice came from the door, "Is it okay if I come in?"

"Yeah," Gerard replied.

"How is it going in here?" He asked, standing in the doorway.

"As good as it can," I shrugged.

Johnny nodded before climbing into bed next to Gerard.

"You are two of the strongest people I know," Johnny stated.

"I think that's you," I smiled, "Considering you're like pure muscle and all."

Johnny rolled his eyes, "That's so not what I meant."

"I love you guys," Gerard wrapped an arm around each of us.

"I love you," Johnny and I said in unison.

I was glad these two were here. As hard as it was to not have one of my best friends with me, I knew I could count on Gerard and Johnny to support me.

I wished I could have Claire's shoulder to cry on, but I also knew Gerard wasn't ready to see her. And I respected that.

I was well aware that if I called and asked her to come over she would be here in minutes.

In fact any of my friends probably would, and it sucked it took me a situation like this to realize people did care about me.

I wasn't weighing people down, they really did love me.

Especially Patrick.

Who I did want to see but I needed time to try and come to terms with my trauma.

"You're coming to stay at my place in Dublin?" Johnny confirmed, as we laid in bed.

"Yeah," I nodded, "That's what mam said."

Part of me wanted to stay home and talk to my friends.

But I knew I would go.
I needed to be there for Gerard and my mam.

I wanted to spend time with my family.

Because as fucked up as everything was, I did love them.

And it was time we figured our lives out.

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sorry this chapter is literally so short.

i wanted to update but i'm literally exhausted from school

love you

xoxo

-F