My Candy Addicted Dentist || MEANIE ● WONMIN

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Everything happened so quickly. Before my brain could even manage to process anything, events just kept on unraveling by themselves and snowballed into this big mess that we were in now.

Mingyu just confessed to me, and truthfully that wasn't even the part that I was most concerned about.

It was the fact that I didn't even hate it.

My feelings of distaste for this person turned to a more ambiguous sense of interest. I found his frequent visits to the clinic troublesome at first, but as he carved his existence deeper into my life by showing up almost everyday to where I work, it was natural I guess that I started to be more conscious of him and his whereabouts.

When he confessed to me back there in that small room, I thought I was going to lose all sense of sanity. I felt all the blood in my body rush into my face. I couldn't think straight, especially when he looked so serious and was standing so close to me. My breathing started to go heavy and my heart was, of course, beating like crazy. I was never the type to take complements well. Although I may seem rather calm on the outside, I'm honestly just a nervous wreck with a bad temper on the inside. So having heard such embarrassing things from this person just pushed my limits to the fullest.

He said he was sincere with his feelings and that he was sure that he wasn't mistaking it for something else. But how about me? What do I feel for this person?

I've always known since college that I could be attracted to both genders for as long as I felt a connection with them. I dated a guy once and let's just say....it was surely an experience. Since then I haven't been making any efforts to date as I wanted to focus my time more on building my career first. Years later and I've done just that, but it cost me my social life, that's for sure.

I felt alone and left out by my peers. I didn't want my family to worry about me as well. So I just decided that maybe I wasn't really meant for dating and that I was meant to be alone, drowning myself in sweets for the rest of my life.

Then I met him.

Is this uncertainty of mine a sign that I may like him?

Why am I hesitating so much? Do I really like him that way? Am I not just looking for someone to spend time with? Are these feelings of mine strong enough to be an answer to him?

I don't know yet for sure, but I do know that I don't want to hurt him now, or ever for that fact.

I felt a tap on my shoulder. I faced to see him looking at me all worried again. How many times has this been? He's such a caring and nice guy. Maybe even too nice for his own good.

"Keep staring at me like that and I might ki---"

"Stop it with the cheesy lines already."

His soft voice filled my ears as he laughed beside me.

"You were being all serious again. I just wanted to lighten the mood you know?"

"I was just thinking."

"If your thinking about what to say after my whole love confession---"

In an impulse I quickly slapped his arm fearing that he might say something stupid again.

"Jeez you sure are strong. That kinda hurt." he rubbed his arm while wincing in pain. Serves you right idiot.

"I told you to tone it down with the cringey remarks didn't I?"

"I just wanted to tell you that you don't have to stress too much about our deal. You don't have to try too hard to please me as well. Having you not run away from me will be enough to keep me shush." There's that seemingly innocent smile of his again. Never gonna fall for that.

"Thanks I guess. Whatever. Let's see where this leads us then. Don't blame me though if you end up crying after all this." I raised my drink waiting for him to clink beer cans or something to finally wrap up the night.

He raised his beer and looked at me with warm doting eyes. I watched them as they traced every part of my face, from my eyes, nose, lips and then back to my eyes where it felt like I was drowning in his gaze.

While remaining eye contact, he inched closer and clinked his beer can to mine.

"Just fall for me already."

He downed the rest of his beer and knocked out.