always raining - Poetry

and rainbows drift

you always know the right words to say, and I'm not listening anymore.

your hugs were warm, always made me forget your lies, "I'll hold your broken pieces together," you promised me, then held onto me so tight i could barely breathe. But still i endured it. Well at least he's here for me, i said right before you ran away. What the fuck

you lure me in with your snakes rattle and i stupidly hold out my arms when you return - you always know what to do and say and maybe that's the problem

you hold my broken pieces together, huh? maybe you're the one breaking me this time - just because you were better than the last guy doesn't mean you're the right one for me

do you even have the courage to love me? Love is only for the strong and the brave and the free. Don't waste my time.

Reaching groping hands yearn for any cheap feel for my cold body - i will no longer rise for any soft blind caress

take off your mask and show me who you are - or go back into the darkness with the rest of the cowards - i will leave you there, where you prefer to be

the sun is shining on me and i bask in it, i have no time for dancing shadows - i prefer to sunbathe - save your darkness for someone blind, they're used to it

i enjoy the complexity and solving the riddle of you - don't get me wrong, i want to heal you - hold you in my warm embrace like a suckling child - my natural instinct to nurture- but that kind of scenario gets tired and old and im sick of playing that role - maybe its my turn to be held and nurtured now