always raining - Poetry

Always waiting

I hug my hoodies instead of you
Eternally waiting like a leaf clinging to a tree
With only pumpkin spice lattes to warm my heart
Cuddling into blankets instead of your body
You escape me like breaths of fog
Evanescent
Ghosts of you cling in the air, then disappear
My passion lies in the color of each leaf
So vibrant, bursting with hope
And then I watch the colors fade away
My hopes and my heart drying and curling up into brown leaves like paper bags
All of the world is dying while I wait for you
While I watch on my back porch with a cup of tea
The rising chill steals the warmth from my heart
I shudder in your absence
Remember when you used to warm my shoulders?
Pushing the cold from my skin with each squeeze of your hands
Well all of my bones are cold
And no one can warm them
The chill had settled deep inside me in ways it can't escape