always raining - Poetry

three dollars to my name

Three dollars to my name
Never be the same
On a yesterday dream
Faces change from familiar to unfamiliar
Loneliness apparent
Clinging to strangers
Lost everything and a world anew
Is it worth it? Throwing all to the wind?
Everything comes to a head all at once then explodes and then implodes
Leaving me burning
Wishes mean nothing anymore
Everything at a standstill all the time
Moving at a snails pace
Face mixing and unmixing
Looking for the moment of happy
Maybe I always would've winded up here
Lying on the cement staring at the shapes in the clouds
It's all I got
How can I pray to god? I am the god.
Heavens silence and
Everything depending on me
Here we go again
Turn my body windward and fly home to the stars
Curl into a ball, hope i disappear
Become a black hole that deletes everything
And then what?
Start over and over and over again
To the same conclusion
That no one ever gets along
And everyone turns to spit at god
Unbreakable feelings, I guess
Or not
I feel everything
And does it matter to anyone ever?
There's gotta be more to life.
There's gotta be more to this.
Still I'm left with a wish. And I'm the genie.
I will grant everyone's wishes and then disappear into a black hole.
Just call me when you need me
And of course, I'll always be there