always raining - Poetry

The Cruelity of the Universe

he holds my stars so gently

while i flail like a broken butterfly

dropped on the ground

(broken because i got caught in a gust of wind during the darkest of your storms) (im not ok)

it's time to stop flailing - to look at someone with a fixed gaze

sure i will huddle all of you underneath my wings like baby birds

but there's only one i can wrap both

arms around - and fully pour into my love

and that's --

he told me to write him a poem

so i poured and poured through

the dictionary for the most beautiful words

holding it up for him to see

then he flinched and ran away...ok

only you, i said while glaring at him through the rain

yes i will hold you in my shaking arms

my wishes shake loose and blow away

like dandelion seeds

your words glitter like fireflies

and sunkiss my lips

i never thought i could possibly be treated this sweetly!

completely caught off guard and wide eyed

and YOU glimmer in my astonished eyes

(catch me before someone else does)

while i fly around him

he kisses my stars, promises to take me to mars

holds me to block the blows

how could i forget you, shit

one pulls, the other i turn to desperately grasp at

forever gripping his cuffs

how can you forgive me?

i don't deserve to hold your heart, but ill try

with my clumsy trembling fingers

i held myself in your eyes

a dancing light

in hopes of your flickering gaze

that light has died

can i make it glow again?

you are a natural phenomena

that i want to sit on my back porch

to watch with an amused grin and sparkling eyes

sure, ill go for the guy whose bruises haven't faded yet

just waiting to get hurt again with arms folded

and a menacing glare

and he and i are playing this game of tag

and i wont.stop.running

i don't even see him behind me

i feel obligated to please you

for my tap dance to be sure-footed in your watchful eyes

still looking at you, terrified of the day i bid you adieu

and say, bye i hope all your wishes come true

bye, i wish you find someone like you

bye because you deserve the best

and i couldn't give it to you

bye, because who knows why - the universe is cruel