always raining - Poetry

connections

what do i do with all of these connections i've built? some good, some bad, some a mixture of the two, but still comforting and meaningful in lots of ways

what do i do with all of these feelings i have? those things don't just go away easy

what do i do with all of the time i wasted? can't get that back and now nothing left to fill the day

what do i do with the words you said? they keep echoing over and over in my head, melodic and torturous

i devoted so much time, heart space, and energy into these connections, they took a lot out of me, some giving in return, but not enough in exchange

i gave u my heart and drowned in your lies, confusion and games instead of telling me the truth, everything was wrong, its too late to make it right

now the best thing to do is just to walk away, my heart a c h e s, doesn't mean I want you back, just means you never should've fucked with me in the first place

they said i never fell in love because i couldn't handle getting my heart broken, i guess i understand that now, i always thought loneliness to be worse until i met men like you all