ℝ𝔼-𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋 ||𝐇𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐲'𝐬 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐁𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠

23. I'm not jealous 😣

JAYDEN'S POV

I just sat down staring at her. And why the hell am I so jealous?

Shit! I'm not jealous!

The thing is Drake is a bad guy and Hailey's is never gonna be safe with him. She's friends with Mira so I guess I should look after her just as I would cater for Mira right?

"You seriously think that's the best thing to do?"

"Yup!" She squeaked and I frowned.

"You're such a child" I added and she rolled her eyes.

"Oh please! I need to get going. I think it's drizzling." She added almost immediately and stood up packing her things into her backpack. I stood up too as followed her but before she opened the door I held her arm....

Call me clingy or whatever but I seriously wanted to feel the warmth again. The tingling sensation when I hold her. What excuse do I have for being so touchy?

"Drake is seriously no good. I'm not just bluffing or jealous but I'm dead serious" I managed to say and I saw the amused glint in her eyes. Gawd! I shouldn't have added the jealous part.

"Why not just come out straight and tell me you don't want me to go?"

Surely I don't want her to go. I'm afraid I might loose her to Drake and...

Did u just say you'll loose her to Drake? You both aren't even friends not at all dating? Protective much!

My subconscious mind teased and I scoffed. Drake is no good, he's dangerous and might force her into doing things. He just pulls up the nice guy and good guy facade to draw people to him while on the inside he's a complete a** hole!

I realized that convincing her to stay would be a very futile attempt so I had to let her go.

"Just take care of yourself" I muttered and she shrugged. Why on earth do I have these silly feelings when I'm with her? I gently let go of her arm I realized I was still holding and she sighed.

"I'll be on my way now" she said without sparing me a glance. Why does she hate me so much?

Silly question! You caused it!

Oh mehn! I was so mean to her even on the first day I spoke to her.

Just then my eyes involuntarily went to my closet and I sighted an inhaler lying on the floor, seems like it mistakenly dropped.

The inhaler brought tears to my eyes, it filled me with so much guilt and I don't think things can ever be the same again after his death.

"Jace..." I muttered under my breath.

He owned that inhaler, my twin brother. It was because of me that he died. Avalon had a hand in it too and that was why I never really wanted to have anything to do with women again. My mind went back to the incident and now the tears were flowing freely and I let them have their way.

Avalon knew quite well that Jace was asthmatic and yet she let that stuff burn, the smoke filled the kitchen.... She locked the door to the kitchen and claimed she didn't know Jace was inside and she was just playing around.

Shit!

Just playing around and we had to search for the keys for close to fifteen minutes before I finally found the spare in my mum's drawer. The key was later found in her purse and she called all that a coincidence.

Jace must have struggled for breath in that kitchen but what was I doing? I was making out with Avalon, that was before I realized something was burning and I had a faint knock from the kitchen....

After the incident she never returned, she went to God knows where and has left me to bear the pain, the guilt and everything alone. Mum still believes it was an accident and I can't even make her believe the actual truth because I have no solid evidence against her.... Mum claimed that her father was transferred so the family had to relocate because of it but still! Why did she have to kill my brother and then leave me without notice.

"Fuck you Avalon! Fuck you!"

I yelled at no one in particular because I was alone in my room. I was crying now cause I couldn't hold it back anymore.

I loved her like I loved myself, I always had quarrels with Jace because of her. Jace never liked her and I should have seen that as a red flag, but no! I was blinded by the stupid love I have for that she-devil. I did everything for her but what did I get in return? She ran away after causing my brother's death.

She doesn't deserve my tears. She's not worth it!

I say to myself as I wipe my tears and wallowed in the regret of being so into a woman that would cut through my heart and leave me with nothing but pains and self regret....

That was why I promised myself not to fall for anyone again, that was why I resorted to acting so mean towards Hailey. I thought I could turn a blind eye towards the attraction I feel for her but I can't.

I can't let her break down the walls I've built... No emotions for now! Guess it's a disadvantage of falling in love so easily. I just have to end all these emotions shit.

I gently stand up from the floor where I was and wiped my face with a napkin. I dropped the inhaler in my bag.

"May your soul rest in peace Jace"

Damn...

This chapter made me so emotional and I almost shed tears for Jayden too. Whoever Avalon might be I seriously don't like her and that's final🙅🙅🙅.

So that's the end lovelies....
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