𝘌𝘯𝘫𝘰𝘺!!
Old habits
Die hard
I think that's how that saying goes
I'm not even sure what it means
I went back to my old habits
And didn't die, oh geez
I don't think I can at this point anyway
I'm too much of a coward
But the urge to hurt and die
has grown so much
It's like im being devoured
I found an off switch tho
the one for emotion
All it took was for my heart to die
and it caused quite the commotion
it took a while to find
but I'm sure
that this time I've lost my mind
I feel hollow on the inside
just the silent pain rotting within
It creeps around me
And whispers so gently
while I rip my skin
There's nothing more that I want
Than to numb this
for the inner turmoil to cease
I squeeze at my throat
I can feel the blood pooling in my ears
there's nothing left, there's no heart in here
I choke away all my fears
just like I used to one year ago
Except with fewer tears
Nothing will come, they just won't flow
if I pull tighter, my head goes numb
this habit I have is the most fun
Everything goes silent, little to no pain
when im at my limit, I can start
All over again
And after it's a whisper
what is done, is done
And it's much easier than bruising
Or cutting
Everything goes silent and I feel nothing
It's funny
I was scared to sleep after
I was scared I wouldn't wake
When I put my head down
All my body did was shake
Old habits
Die hard I guess
Im filled with nothing but sorrow
If I continue this habit
I might not see tomorrow
♡+-𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓃𝓀 𝒴𝑜𝓊 𝓈𝑜 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔-+ ♡
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Midnight Chronicles
Poetry+- Sometimes the hardest battles are fought within. We all hide pieces of ourselves, but what happens when the walls break down? You can never hide forever. Pain can be a powerful teacher and often teaches us painful truths, pain never lies. In life...
