If Prim had lived.

Chapter 21

Katniss pov

I look at Prim in shock, "How can I be pregnant?" "Uh well" Prim says "If I remember correctly, when two people love each other, "No" I say quickly holding up my hand to stop her before she goes into any more details, "I know how it happened"  "I just can't believe it" "Is everything okay" Peeta asks through the door, "Prim" I say grabbing her hand "We can't tell him, I can't tell him, not yet"  She nods, and goes out to talk to him, I listen at the door and I can her tell him everything is fine, and that I probably just ate something bad, I hear Peeta say okay and to call if we need anything I come out and he gives me a hug and a kiss on the cheek before heading off to the bakery, I hate keeping things from him but I just can't tell him about this, I'm not even sure if I want it, I sit on the edge of the bed, and Prim sits down next to me, "I don't know what to do" I say "I never wanted kids, I never wanted to bring them into this world"  "Katniss" Prim says "You love kids, every time you're around one you turn into a completely different person"  I shake my head, "But I've seen so much horror and so much cruelty. "How can I subject an innocent child to any of that?" She takes a minute to think before she responds, "Katniss, the games are over, Snow is gone, bad things happen you can't stop it, but that doesn't mean you should stop living either, "But what if I'm not a good mom?" I say "What if I'm too damaged, what if?" "Hey" She says cutting me off, "The only thing you're ever going to be to that child is mom, not the girl on fire or the Mockingjay or whatever nickname you have"   "You know, she says. "I had a dream about that while I was in my coma" "It was the future and you had kids, you and Peeta were married, and you were happy" "Where were you?" I ask, "I don't really remember" She says "I just remember how happy you were"  "Do you really think I'll be a good mom" I ask her, "Katniss" She says, "You've pretty much been my mom, since we were kids, there were times when you were more of a mother to me than our own mother, think of it this way, our real mom is in district 4 and I'm here with you".  I pull her into a hug breathing in her scent, "I love you"  "I love you too" She says. 

Peeta pov

I finish work at the bakery around 6 pm it was a slow day but there was still plenty of work to be done. I walk home from the bakery, I hope Katniss is feeling better, I enter the house to see her sitting on the couch staring into space, "Katniss?" I ask "Are you okay" She looks up at me, and I can see she's been crying, "What is it?" I ask sitting next to her,  "Peeta, I have something to tell you" "I'm pregnant" My eyes widen and I'm unable to process what she just said to me, "You're what?" She shows me the test, I look at her then back at the test then back at her, "Really?" I ask with a smile, she nods a small smile forming on her lips, I hug her tightly "I'm scared" "Eventually we're gonna have to tell this baby who we are and what happened, what if we can't give it a normal life?" "Hey" I say pulling back, "We'll figure it out, we'll cross that bridge when we get to it, but right now that doesn't matter and you are going to be an amazing mother" She leans her head on my chest and I wrap my arm around her. I can't believe it, I'm gonna be a dad, Katniss and I are gonna be parents, there was a time, when I thought Katniss and I wouldn't even be friends, and even more times when I thought I would lose her. The capital tried to destroy us, they tried to make me believe terrible things about her that weren't true, but they couldn't break the love I have for her, no matter how hard they tried. 

Katniss pov, 

Nightmare

Snow, laughs evilly at me, Prim and Peeta are in the grasps of a couple of peacekeepers holding knives to their throats, I try to move but I can't it's like I'm frozen.  Mrs Everdeen" He says "You can only save one"  "Choose" "Katniss" Peeta says. "Choose Prim" "it's okay"  Prim's eyes widen, and she looks at my stomach, I look down and notice another peacekeeper holding a knife to it threatening my unborn child, "Save your baby, Katniss" Prim says.  "Who will it be?" "Snow asks" Tapping his wrist as though he has a watch on, "No Please!" I shout, "Please not them, "Take me!" "Snow grins a wicked Grin, "That wasn't one of the choices" "It's the things we love most that destroy us" He nods at one of the peacekeepers and he slides his knife across Prim's throat "NO!" I shout, the other one shoots Peeta in the head and he crumples to the floor, Somehow I'm able to move again, I run to their bodies, "Prim has blood coming out of her mouth, "Stay with me Prim" I beg her, "This is all your fault" She says then her become a glossy stare. 

I jolt awake, surprised that I didn't scream, I look over and see Peeta is still sleeping, good I didn't wake him up, I look at the clock to see that it's just past 3 am I know it wasn't real but I need to see Prim to see that she's okay, I get out of bed careful not to wake Peeta and tip toe to Prim's room, I quietly open her door to find her fast asleep, "Hey" I whisper I adjust the blanket so it's covering her more and run my hand through her hair, it's hard to believe that just under a year ago, she was in a coma at death's door, I can't imagine what I would do if I ever lost her, I sit with her for a few minutes just to reassure myself that she's okay, when I've calmed down enough to leave I kiss her forehead and go back to my room, to see Peeta looking at me sleepily, "Are you okay?" He asks, "Yeah" I say climbing back into bed, "Just a nightmare, I needed to see Prim for a minute" He nods understandingly, I rest my head on his chest, and he wraps his arm around me, and I fall back to sleep with no nightmares. 

Prim pov,

I wake up to the smell of pancakes and bacon, I sit up and stretch I grab my cane and walk out of my room, to see Katniss Peeta and Haymitch all standing in the kitchen with Peeta tending to the breakfast, "Morning little duck" Katniss says, "Morning" I say grabbing a glass of orange juice, Everyone is talking except Peeta. "Peeta" Katniss asks, "Mutt" He mutters under his breath, Everyone stops and looks at him, "You mutt!" Peeta shouts at Katniss grabbing a knife and swinging it at her, She ducks and Haymitch grabs him and holds him back from hurting Katniss, "Peeta it's not real!" She screams, He continues to thrash, "Katniss, out of the room!" I shout, "Peeta!" She shouts "Please it's not real" "Go!" I shout at her, she runs to her bedroom and Haymitch forces Peeta into a chair, he screams at Haymitch to let him go, "I need to kill her and that spawn she has inside of her!" There's no doubt that Katniss is listening to all of this, "Peeta" I say in a firm voice, "She's not a mutt, she's your wife, and that's your child" "No!" He shouts, "She's a mutt, she killed my family, don't trust her!" "Peeta" I say holding up his hand to show him the wedding ring, "She's your wife" He looks at the wedding ring and I see him slowly starting to come back to reality, I nod to Haymitch and he lets him go, "Katniss?" Peeta calls, "Katniss walks out and Peeta runs to her and embraces her, "I'm sorry" He says "I'm so sorry" "Shhhh" She says "It's not your fault Peeta" I decide then and there that I'm gonna try to find a cure for Peeta's hijacking, I might take weeks months or years, but I'm gonna find something somehow.