The Unexpected

Chapter 50

Scarlett's POV:

Waking up the following morning while facing the wall beside me, I breathed out such all of a loud sigh, as Mesut remained sleeping beside me. To be completely with you right now, in such a sense, I cannot even begin to explain the bad mood I am in, and of course yes, it does have everything to do with what happened with Mesut, yesterday. I know I wanted to know the truth and I wanted to hear it come from his lips without assuming for myself, but not by any means did I think it would hurt as much as it did. It honestly did feel, as if, someone had just ripped my heart out with their very own hands, forcing it, and leaving me broken. Never in my life have I felt so heart, so broken, and so disrespected, but by Mesut out of all people.

And just from the way in which he acted with me last night, opening up to me about how he feels with this baby situation, I know there is no way I can force it upon him anymore. Mesut made himself clear with how he feels, that he is the only one, that can change his own mind, in this sense. It is no longer in my power anymore. So the one and only thing I can do right in this moment is wait, wait and see if maybe he will change his mind on all of this. But with all the way I am feeling now, and how I see everything, there is no way Mesut is going to in of a slight sense, change his mind. He does not want this, he does not want to be a father, to our unborn child. So it is left up to me now to step up, and strangely I am fine with it completely.

But anyway, bringing my mind far away from that aspect of my life – no matter how hard all of that may be for me – I soon turned to look at the clock on the bedside table, wanting just to see what the time was in order to know when I had to get ready for work. And so, in that moment I looked at the time, I noticed that it was already time, for me to have to start now to get ready. So with a short groan of annoyance coming from me, due to the fact of how it was I wanted to stay in bed, I soon got up. Being as careful as I could in doing so, just due to the fact of not wanting to wake Mesut. And soon enough, I went to sit in front of the mirror.

Where upon setting myself down in front of it, I proceeded to start with my make-up. Just to apply a small and thin layer of foundation and mascara, before starting on my hair only as in that moment I stuck it up into a pony-tail, taking in how I was of course going to have all the both of my hair and make-up done again for my shoot later on today. And so the moment in which I had finally sorted out my face, I stood up from the mirror, walking delicately over to the draws in the far corner of the room. So once stood in front of them I soon opened them up, taking out a fresh pair of underwear, and a simple outfit to travel to my shoot today. To be honest, I was not in the mood to go all out, so I just went for the simple sort of look too.

And the second in which I was finally ready to head off to work today, with my shoes on in a few moments afterwards, I proceeded to walk down the stairs. Hearing only, the soft sound of Mesut peacefully sleeping in bed. Unlike any other time usually when I leave the house to go to work, I did not wake Mesut up, or even contemplate on doing so. As with the way all I left things with him last night, that is not the best thing to do to be honest. It will only make it all a hell of a lot worse, and I cannot be dealing with that by any means. I do not need any more stress in my life at the moment, as just like I am aware of, it is not good for the baby in any way, shape, or form. I just want a straight forward pregnancy, although that will not be.

Especially with everything involving Mesut.

Anyway, once picking up the car keys from the side down by the front door I breathed out in a way to try and remove my bad mood, seeing as I did not want to ruin my day today. But, it did not seem to work, as my mood, would not shift. And so, I sighed heavily to myself, trying to ignore it completely, as I made my way out of the house, and towards the car, that Mesut allows me to use for whenever I need to go out. Getting myself inside and placing my phone onto the dashboard, I put the keys into ignition, before starting my journey ahead to work in that moment. The radio playing away to itself here in the car. And still, no matter how hard I tried to put a smile on my face, it would not work, as Mesut was all I could think about now.